While in the Intensive Care Unit of the hospital the doctors inserted a feeding tube into my nose while I was intubated. The nutrients from the feeding tube filled my belly causing my stomach to spasm and all the nutrient went into my lungs because I was intubated. I felt my lungs fill and my breath shorten. The call-button was just out of reach when I realized I had no control and there was nothing I could do. I thought of my family and the life I wouldn't lead. My eyes swelled in tears as I took my last breaths. Then everything went black.
It seemed instantly that I was somewhere else. It was as though I stepped through a doorway in the back of my mind and into another dimension. I first noticed the floor or rather the absence of it. There was a thick mist or fog that covered the ground up to my knees. The very next thing that I noticed was the sound of music. It soothed me. I didn't know the song but it seemed familiar. It was symphonically orchestral and with brass, strings and woodwinds, but the sound was still subtle. The sound seemed to be coming from my right. So, I looked in that direction.
I saw a deep void of darkness, like an astronaut who looked into the stars from orbit. Then I looked in front of me and saw my deceased grandmother. She was standing just in front of the 'White Light.' The light radiated warmth, light, love and anything I needed to know. I also noticed other figures off to the left of me. They seemed peaceful in pairs holding each other and swaying with the music. My grandmother delivered the choice to me. I could stay with her or go back to my life. She told me that if I stayed, everything would be o.k. She said that if I went back to my body, it would be the most challenging experience I would ever endure. Then she showed me my grieving family. It was like I was transported to the moment when my loved ones were talking about me. I saw my other grandparent who were still alive. She was driving to the hospital to see me. My Papa was consoling my grandma saying, 'Don't cry, he's going to make it!' I also saw my best friends driving to see me at the hospital. They were saying how bad it was and how I didn't look like myself. I also saw my mother and aunt in the hospital watching over me. I saw their tears and the uncertainty in there expressions.
The night of the car accident there was a friend of my Aunt whom I had never met. She woke my Aunt up in the middle of the night to say that a young man my Aunt knew was in terrible danger. This friend of my Aunt happened to be a sensitive. My Aunt called my Mother right afterwards. My Mother had just got off the phone with the sheriff's office. My Mother had seen a vision of her mother and I laughing and having a good time. This was during the same time as my NDE. I also had a premonition dream three years before the car accident.
Dr. Jeff: I would appreciate any comments that you have to a question of mine. One of the questions that you responded to, and your response was:
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes I felt as though just seeing the crossroads and standing before the light gave me an experience that not many other people had. My grandmother conveyed a piece of information regarding everyone, that NDE's and experience like them will become more frequent and people will begin to see the true 'Meaning of life' That is to LOVE give it receive it share it and spread it in any way you feel.
That is very interesting that you became aware that NDE’s and experiences like them will become more frequent. With regard to NDEs, did you have a sense as to whether this meant more people would have life-threatening events resulting in more NDEs occurring, or could this mean there will be about the same number of life-threatening events with more people will having NDE-type experience at the time of the life-threatening event? Any further comments that you have on this would be appreciated!
Thanks again for sharing!
William: Thank you Jeffrey, to answer your question. When my grandmother conveyed to me that more people would have experiences that would open their eyes to the dimensions that exist parallel to ours and how strong those dimensions influence ours. This did not necessarily mean that people would have to suffer physical pain in order to come to that point of understanding. She inferred that every person would come to that understanding in their own way. Basically she told me about more of a spiritual awakening a shift in the paradigm of the collective consciousness of our dimension. I personally believe this is related to the changing of the ages and our solar system's position in our galaxy.
Date NDE Occurred: June 2002
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)
In June 2002, I was riding in the back seat of a 1986 Nissan Sentra with five other friends driving down an old country road. We approached an intersection where the road was uneven with a large bump. We lost control, swerved off road, and hit a telephone pole. I suffered internal bleeding and was rushed to the hospital. Before I could receive medical attention, I was sent home and told I was fine. After 36 hours I collapsed and died for the first time. It was not until later that I had my NDE. I was rushed back to the hospital and opened up again. I coded three more times during the surgeries.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I visited my living friends and relatives while they were talking about me. Transporting to them felt instantaneous.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. The only way I can find the words is to feel a completeness or feeling whole and one with everything.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Yes! I felt as if I was completely connected to the collective and God.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I had no sense of time. When I saw my grandparents in their car driving to the hospital to see me, that was days from the time when my friends were in their car on the way to see me at the hospital. Even though I seemed to experience these two occurrences consecutively with no time in-between.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything seemed very clear as if a veil had been lifted and I could know or express anything instantly with clarity and purity with no miscommunication or misunderstandings.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing seemed the same. The only thing I could hear was the music. All the communication was telepathic. I believe the music may have been telepathic as well.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My Grandmother
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I believe 'The White Light' is our interpretation of God. It was a warm, pure, earnest, compassionate, and unconditional LOVE.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. The floor was covered in a thick fog or mist up to my knees. There was beautiful sounding music coming from my right. I looked to my right, I saw a deep void of darkness. I saw the light in front of me and my grandmother in front of the light. To the left I saw many other shadowy figures that seemed to be holding each other and swayed with the music.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Just before my NDE, I felt fear, anxiety, sadness, hopelessness. Once I let go, I only felt LOVE and all the good feelings that come with it.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. While in the presence of the light, I could understand everything and I wanted nothing. I didn't really care what the secrets to the universe were or the meaning of life. The veil of communication was lifted and I was able to see only truth. In life we must decipher the truth from lies. While in the presence of the light I was in the presence of absolute truth.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
The experience included: Awareness of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated. My family did not regularly attend church although we did respect the 'Golden Rule'.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I love praying and worship although I don't attend any specific religion.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Other or several faiths. I look at my life completely differently now. I look at religion much differently now as well. To me all religions have many truths and we have all the truth inside us. We must experience life and love is the most important thing to learn or share or have or give. Everything else is just cultural, we are products of our environments.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I was a 17-year-old man during this time and honestly, I was not thinking about my spirituality. I thought I was indestructible and immortal.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origi. I was greeted by my grandmother who died when my mother was young. We communicated telepathically.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Nothing is created or destroyed only transformed.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes While in the presence of the light I understood that all life is eternal because we are all connected. We are a collective consciousness. We merely transform into another dimension. This life is all about love because once we are in the presence of God. Love is the only emotion. Love is God's chosen emotion. Love is really greater than an emotion but for the purpose and confines of language I will refer to love as an emotion.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes While in the presence of the light, I understood that all life is eternal because we are all connected. We are a collective consciousness. We merely transform into another dimension. This life is all about love because once we are in the presence of God, love is the only emotion. Love is God's chosen emotion. Love is really greater than an emotion but for the purpose and confines of language I will refer to love as an emotion.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt as though just seeing the crossroads and standing before the light gave me an experience that not many other people had. My grandmother conveyed a piece of information regarding everyone, that NDEs and experience like them will become more frequent and people will begin to see the true 'meaning of life' That is to LOVE - give it, receive it, share it and spread it in any way you feel.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes While in the presence of the light I understood that all life is eternal because we are all connected. We are a collective consciousness. We merely transform into another dimension. This life is all about love because once we are in the presence of god love is the only emotion. Love is God's chosen emotion. Love is really greater than an emotion but for the purpose and confines of language I will refer to love as an emotion.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes While in the presence of the light I understood that all life is eternal because we are all connected. We are a collective consciousness. We merely transform into another dimension. This life is all about love because once we are in the presence of god love is the only emotion. Love is God's chosen emotion. Love is really greater than an emotion but for the purpose and confines of language I will refer to love as an emotion.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes This question goes beyond the comprehension of our minds. While in the presence of the light everything made sense. I feel that our suffering is the greatest of all blessings. We learn the most from that which nearly kills us. Each persons hardships are directly related to the lesson that person must learn. It is our choice whether we accept the challenge or not. Regardless of what path I choose, it seems as though I'm destined to learn these lessons. I might choose the time place or even circumstances, yet the lessons still remain the same. Those lessons come differently for everyone. I feel the lessons are about LOVE, such as how to give, receive, share, spread the love.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is God's chosen emotion. Really, love is more than just emotions. It is impossible for me to describe anymore because God's love is indescribable.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life. I mostly changed how I viewed and perceived my existence.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I feel closer to many people that were around me during that time.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes the immense and earnest feeling of love and warmth from the light (God) is completely indescribable.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I will always remember this as long as I can remember.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? There is another related occurrence. When I was fourteen, three years before the accident, I had a premonition dream. In the dream, I saw myself in the the car. There were many different details that were identical to my experience; such as, I was sitting in the car and the girl that was on my lap. Most importantly, I remember specifically in the dream the girl driving took her hands off the wheel for a moment and screamed just before impact.
All of this was shown to me at the end of a different dream that holds incredible significance to me. The dream that precluded my premonition began in an old gothic cathedral. It was a dark dream. I was standing with my back to the doors, looking into the church. No one was at the altar and all the people looked sick. I remember the stained-wood pews and cobblestone floor. There was a dankness about the room. I had a package to deliver that seemed to be my mission or purpose. As I started towards the front to deliver the package in my hands (about the size of a shoe box), all the people in the seats began to stand up in front of me. Next thing I realized, there was a whole line of people in front of me. At first the person asked me questions.
I don't remember exactly, but rather than answering the questions, I closed my eyes. When I looked at the people with my eyes closed, my minds eye saw what they really were. At first, it looked like a small gremlin. So I opened my eyes and moved past them. I continued like this and the creatures or monsters got bigger as I kept going up the line. I did not let this slow me down until the last person. He was a sick old man. When I closed my eyes, I saw a huge beast with intermingled snarling and razor-sharp teeth. He had horns busting through the skin of the shoulders. The head was sharp and twisted like overgrown thorns. The bright, blood-red eyes connected with me. Before I could open my eyes from the dream, I was in the back seat of the car a moment before impact.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I immediately shared the story once I woke up after making my decision to live. My mother changed career paths after the accident, from insurance into nursing. I also found a career in the medical field. My brothers, sister and friends all seemed to have some change.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I felt like I had been given a second chance. I felt like I had a special experience and it was important that I share it as much as possible.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I still feel the same.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes The closest thing to my NDE is large amounts of DMT or Ayahuasca. Those chemicals help bring me to a certain point. Although, I feel that during my experience I was taken beyond the point that any chemical could bring the human mind.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? During my stay in the intensive care unit, the doctors induced coma. After 24 hours, three of my family members and a friend of the family who was an 'energy worker' and reiki master performed a reiki healing session. I remember seeing their faces and many beautiful colors and lights around them. I was filled with love and joy. We seemed to communicate telepathically. For a moment they said that I woke up, so they took a picture.