Experience Description

I was given the medication called the epidural. I was allergic to it and it had paralyzed me from the neck down. I went into shock from the medication and then my blood pressure bottomed out and I died. I left my body and could hear the nurses and doctor working on me. I did not look behind me to see them, I was headed for a window where a cool October fall breeze was coming in, and I knew that if I reached that window, that I would never come back. Then a being appeared, Angel-like and reminded me of the husband and son that would never see me again and the daughter that would never know her mother. (I did not know I was having a girl.) Then when I felt this profound love for my family, it was like a rubber-band that snapped me back into my body of pain. I had a choice to go or stay. But, I think that when I came to the choice of love and understanding of what this being was showing me, that's when it was understood what my choice had to be. When I was out of my body, there was no pain just profound peace and love. I knew that I was going to a place that was beyond anything a mortal could imagine. I do not to this day fear death in any way. And as a retired nurse, I shared my story with those at the door of death to help their journey of crossing over easier.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: Oct. 24, 1971

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Childbirth Clinical death Allergic reaction.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Good.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There is no time as we know it here. You know somehow that you are between worlds as we know it.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Nothing unusual, just the medical staff working on me.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No I was stopped before I got there.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I feel it was my Guardian Angel, she came from the window where I was going to. She told me the story of my family.

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Brighter than light we know.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace.

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe But not right away, that came later after the rebirth of me.

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Not really past more of the present and future. And yes I have learned much, to always say I love you to those that matter, for tomorrow we may not be here.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future My life with my family.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I had a choice, to stay or go.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

What is your religion now? Liberal Wicca

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes A deeper understanding of the two worlds and how very mortal we are here.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I have always been psychic.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best is knowledge there is no worst.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Their reaction is one of almost answers to their own questions and at the time they seemed to have a better understanding that there is no reason to fear death.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No