As usual, I had to have another session of chemo, horrible chemo. Everything went well until I began to feel cold and my vision misted. I thought this was a normal reaction, but everything went dark and suddenly there was a flash like a camera-flash. Never had I felt so good, no pain and I seemed to be floating, it was as if I was not ill, no pain and no nausea. Everything around me faded out and I seemed to be in a park, which appeared very familiar, time slowed, and distant voices could be heard as if shouting technical terms. Meanwhile, I wandered slowly through this park which seemed endless, feeling warmth in my chest which grew stronger when I saw Ana (may she rest in peace), my ex-roommate, who died from the same illness as I have. I felt an immense peace. I did not want to leave this dream, but Ana smiled at me, took hold of my nightgown without a word and pulled me towards a precipice. I thought 'why?' and as I fell I saw myself falling towards myself lying in the hospital bed surrounded by doctors and nurses who were giving me CPR and defibrillation. Finally, I heard a loud whistle and woke up feeling tired, but with a feeling of pleasure and sadness, as I wanted to return to that parkland where everything was perfect, without pain.
Date NDE Occurred: 13/04/2013
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness. CPR given. Other: Tengo cáncer de piel (melanoma maligno)en fase metastásica 4.
Now and at the time of the experience, I have been suffering from skin cancer in phase 4 metastasis. It is a miracle I am still alive as inside I am destroyed.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I heard technical terms, and I recall the exact quantity of a substance they injected me with, and specific phrases, which I later repeated word for word to the doctors, who confirmed them.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I came upon myself, saw, and heard the doctors from overhead.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
When I fell back down it accelerated, but in the park everything went more slowly.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. In the experience, I saw everything more vividly but blurred at times, and brightly lit.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard echoes, and voices came and went, louder, then softer and more distant.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It was my friend, roommate and fellow battler with chemo. She had the same illness as me but she did not recover.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A flash at the start of the experience, much light for the rest of it.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No No, actually, in a way, it was supernatural, because although I knew the park, it kept changing and the ground was cloud-like.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Very strong, pleasure, peace, joy, fear (when I fell back), confusion...
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others It is my destiny to struggle with this illness, because my friend wanted it in our meeting in the park, pulling me to the precipice to save me, as if saying it was not yet my time.
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No The place of the experience was the park where I used to play as a child.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? No comment Antes era católica no practicante, pero porque mis padres lo son y yo pues era pequeña y hacía lo que ellos me decían, pero a medida que crecí pensé por mi misma "si dios es tan poderoso?y estoy rezando por que no hace desaparecer esta maldita enfermedad?" y dejé de creer, pero por supuesto respeto y soy tolerante con los demás.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Unknown
What is your religion now? No comment Sigo sin creer en un dios en concreto.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Not in my beliefs, but I had given up wanting to fight, but now I am stronger in confronting the illness and beating it.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? I am uncertain if an afterlife exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes That life is a continual trial and we must always try to overcome it and not surrender.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain It seemed like a dream, but very real at the same time, like a very vivid and irrational dream.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Meeting Ana again in the park
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Uncertain
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Because the doctors confirmed the phrases I had heard them speak.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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