I was six years old, diagnosed with meningitis and pneumonia and a collapsed lung. It was after 'bedtime' as the nurses had gone back to their station; I had nobody else in the room. I was alone.
Then I was suddenly looking down at my body. I was keenly aware in my young mind what had happened. I could look around the room, seeing everything clearly but noticing nothing mattered - in a material sense. I was very aware of the fact I had died, and I had a choice to go to heaven or return to life on earth. I also felt very connected to the universe and could feel how we are all connected. I knew what I had to do - as I felt, knew, I had work to do on earth; I was here to help others. I knew it was too soon to die. It was not a frightening experience, but definitely a life changing experience. It has affected everything I've done to this day and will to the end of my days.
Date NDE Occurred: Spring 1977
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know how long I was 'gone' - I was very aware the entire time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Awareness of time is infinite once we have left our earthy bodies.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Confusion, peace, sense of purpose.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I have a keen sense before things happen all the time.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Roman Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Roman Catholic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I knew why I was born. I knew I have to help people that is my purpose. Material things are worthless - helping people is priceless.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I know when people die. I have always known. Since I got home from the hospital that is. My grandfather died shortly after I came home, I knew when the phone rang and my mother answered it, what it was about.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My purpose for living.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared this with my sister, she has a similar sense but not as 'tuned in' as I am.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain Don't remember having such a sense, but cannot say for sure as I was so young.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I grew up real fast, a six year old knowing the reason they exist is pretty profound.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Nothing has changed. I knew from an early age, from this experience, and have strived, well - not really as it comes naturally to me to need to help people, help them through rough times, it's why I'm here.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No, I think I've been pretty clear.