When they took me to the hospital in the ambulance, I didn't think I would make it out the house. On the way to the hospital, I was in and out of consciousness. I don't remember the ride. When they transferred me to the intensive care unit, they put me on the ventilator and I was very heavily sedated. During the course of this, they found out that I had double pneumonia and also I was suffering from a staph infection.
When this presence came to me in my sleep, it took me on a journey that I will never forget. I started to feel very peaceful. Then I was gliding through this light it was so heavenly and the most beautiful thing I ever saw in my life. The brightness of it you can't explain. It didn't hurt it wasn't so bright that you couldn't look at it. I wanted to stay because at that point I had no pain like most of the time in my life that I do. Then as the presence took me further in that's when a voice came out of this light and said take her back she is not ready to go yet (meaning die). I wish I could make out who this voice was coming from, only to say that maybe it was my mother or maybe I heard the Lord himself, I only know that it was a life changing experience for me and something I'll never forget. I only know now what other people are talking about when they themselves talk about the light.
Date NDE Occurred: 'Febuary,2008'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I was on a ventilator because I had a severe asthma attack.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I wasn't alert or conscious at all. I was totally sedated through the whole ordeal.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain All I remember is passing through what I believed to be white clouds into the light.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain There was this voice that said to whomever was guiding me to take me back, that I was not ready to be here yet.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was the most bright, peaceful and satisfying experiences in my life.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? The only thing I can say from all this is that I was peaceful, sad in the fact that I really didn't understand what that meant as to the outlook on my life.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal None
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal None
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Don't have any.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I wanted to know what it meant to see this light and, who was guiding me toward it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, that there is a very peaceful place out there and only hope to really make it there when my time is really here to see the lord.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About two months later I told my sister. She was just taken aback by the whole thing, we both praying about it and that maybe it was my mother's voice I heard.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I couldn't believe this happened to me. You hear other people talking about it on TV but I would never think it would happen to me.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It just makes you look at life in a whole other way, as to how you can make your own and the lives of others around you better.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No. Thank you for letting me share this story.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No.