The first time this happened to me I didn't really understand what was happening. I was very ill and had not yet been diagnosed with a heart condition. I was lying in bed with my husband and I was feeling very sick, my ears started to ring and then I was looking down at myself and my husband and I did not feel sick anymore at all. I had no bad feelings only good ones. Then I was back in my sick body feeling sick again.
The second time was different because I knew what would happen. I had to go for a test to diagnose my condition. They had to cause the episode to see how my body would react. I was afraid because I knew I was going to die and I didn't know if they would be able to bring me back. I was not afraid of being dead but I was afraid of dying it is the most horrible feeling while you're still alive but on the edge. I was also afraid for my family. I made sure they all knew that if anything ever happened to me, not to be sad because I am okay. I also prayed.
The Episode: At first, I feel very, very sick, and then I start to go numb from my hands and feet all the way to my tongue. My body becomes completely saturated with sweat. Then my ears begin to ring and I can't see anymore but I can still hear and think. I feel sick and scared; I have no strength to breath. Then I cannot hear anything. Suddenly I can see again, but from a different angle, both episodes I was above to the left of my body looking down.
I feel very different; I do not feel sick at all, I had no bad feeling what so ever. My mind thought, 'HMM... HMM, HMM... HMM, HMM.' I did not realize bad things were happening; I was like an innocent child humming. Even though I was looking down at my body and saw people working on me, I was not afraid, nor was I worried about my family. I could hear the nurses calling my name but, I paid no attention to them, I didn't realize I was 'Val.' I began floating backwards toward the open door to the hallway and then into the hallway. There were two men walking in the hallway saying, 'Did you see any cables for this?' I remember wishing I could help them. Then I could hear someone calling 'Valerie!' and I recognized my name and started to listen to them say, 'Come back to me, breath,' and I did, then I was back inside my body and I felt sick again.
Date NDE Occurred: approximately 2003 and again on 7/15/04
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 'Neurocardiogenic Attack During test for Neurocardiogenic sycope' Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I have a heart condition that causes may heart rate to drop, my blood pressure to drop until it is gone.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal When I could see and hear again from above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I could see and hear again from above.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Doorway to hallway.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pleasant, peacefulness, content, no fear - all good and no bad.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I only told my husband at first. I didn't want people to think I was crazy, I still don't.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No Definitely did not believe in it until it happened to me.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I knew it was real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know it is real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I have episodes where I lose consciousness and I plan to look at things up high that I would not normally see at my height, so I can prove reality.