I had lost a lot of blood from liver failure and had to be rushed from Lao to Thailand in an ambulance and by the time I arrived at the hospital I was in a very bad way. I was put into the intensive care unit and they started blood transfusion but I was losing too much blood. I was conscious but in extreme pain and tried to doze on and off, while they kept putting tubes in and out doing tests etc., etc. This went on through the night and more blood was flown from Bangkok the next morning. I remember the doctor saying that a specialist was going to use a scope that they would enter into my stomach. This would be uncomfortable and hurt but they needed to stop the bleeding as I was fading very fast. I was already in extreme pain like I had never experienced before and it seemed that every hair and atom in my body just screamed with pain.
I remember being rolled on my side so they could place the tube into my mouth and then I blacked out. All of a sudden, there was no pain and I remember distinctly a humming noise like the sound of very powerful electrical current that was the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. It is so hard to explain but it is like a hummmmm but as if the most perfect orchestra in the world played it. You probably won't understand that part but it was very distinctive.
The next I remember was seeming to become part of everything but moving with huge fluorescent light structures that formed waves and were perfect in size and movement and the light was perfect. For some reason everything seemed to all of a sudden make sense, the world, myself, everything was answered in an instant and it seemed I knew everything. There were no beings but energy like myself that was part of everything. There was no coolness, heat, wind, or anything just perfect fluorescent lights that controlled all the structure and gently everything moved in waves. I then just remember coming back and the doctor and everyone was standing over me panicking and the pain started to come back again.
Date NDE Occurred: 2005
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' .
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I knew everything and understood everything so there were no questions or queries.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was suddenly aware what everything was and started to move with the light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There seemed to be no time that had meaning everything was in the right place and everything made sense and was perfect.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Everything was perfect color, sound, everything.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? The sound of power and I can still hear the noise or imagine I can hear the noise if I concentrate.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Fluorescent lights connected everything that exists very large fluorescent lights but endless and moved in waves and crossed in a way that made sense.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm as described
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was not part of my body or this world as I know it and nothing seemed to worry me.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I have had some very strange things happen. Several times I have sat down to watch TV and something that I have seen on TV the day before is breaking news which I try not to dwell on as it disturbs me.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I all of a sudden knew everything somehow it is very hard to explain.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes When I came back I remember thinking I wish I could write all that down or I would forget but I remember parts but not all.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes As above.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Too hard to explain.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I tried to tell a friend but found it very hard to talk about.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Immediately after it was very vivid but I was another two days in the intensive care unit and even though it was on my mind I was constantly in pain having tests etc., etc.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It was real in a sense that at the time it was real but after you think about it too often you start to actually wonder if it was real or just a strange dream when you pass away. Very mixed.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No