I awoke suddenly at 5:38 am from a very deep sleep. Realizing that I could not go back to sleep, I got up and let my dogs out the back door. It was dawn but there was enough light for me to see clearly. I began to notice that there seemed to be a problem with my vision - it was a sort of strobe light effect (about the same effect you would achieve by blinking your eyes very rapidly). I then began to feel very light headed and started to notice that I was losing sensation in my extremities. For some reason I said to myself, 'I am dying, I cannot believe this I am actually dying!' At this point, I hurried back into the house and onto my bed feeling as though I was about to collapse and like my body was literally being erased. Still convinced I was dying, a part of my brain insisted that this was impossible as I could feel my heart pounding in my chest and I was still able to breath. At this point, I could think of no other reason to be so convinced that I was dying except that I was possibly losing my mind. I was absolutely horrified and began to pray to God to make whatever this was stop.
The next thing I knew is that I felt as though 'I' (the very core of me - my awareness) was being sucked out of my head. I moved upwards at about a forty degree angle at an incredible rate of speed through what for a lack of a better word, could resemble a tunnel (although the edges seemed permeable, rather than solid). At this point, I was no longer afraid but still fully conscious and aware of what was happening, it was really a very comforting peaceful feeling and I recall thinking that I was heading somewhere pleasant. I could not come close to guessing how long this went on, I totally lost track of time - or rather, there was no time to track.
The speed was unlike anything you could imagine. Although the 'tunnel was dark (like a starless night sky) I could still 'see' but not in the normal context of seeing - it was more like I could see all around me without using my eyes. Far ahead in the distance was a vague light (like headlights behind a hill of an oncoming vehicle). The next thing I knew, the whole experience came to an abrupt end, like a bungee cord had yanked me back into my body and I immediately fell into a deep sleep. It was about 11:15 in the morning when I woke up. The first thing I thought was, 'What in the hell happened to me?'
I had a strange feeling that something horrible had happened, I turned on the TV to the news and saw that tornadoes had hit Indiana and several people had been killed. Much of my family lives in Indiana, so I grabbed by cell phone to call and check on them. My phone rang before I was able to call anyone, it was 11:47 and the caller on the other end said, 'Your mother is dead!' She had not been sick. I had spoken with her at 1:02 in the morning and she was fine. My mother did not die from the tornadoes but rather from cardiac/respiratory arrest. According to reports her death would have occurred at around the same time I had my experience. I no longer feel that I was losing my mind, what happened to me was as real as anything I have ever experienced - in fact, it was more real.
Since this experience, I feel like I have become a totally different person, one with more understanding and empathy. The message I got was definitely about love, God, and a universal connection between everything. Although I do not believe that I was ever actually near death I experienced all of this at around the same time my mother passed away, I was fully awake, not on alcohol or drugs, and not suffering from any mental impairment.
Date NDE Occurred: 11/06/2005
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain mother's death cardiac/respiratory arrest Other NDE at moment of Mother's deathTo my mother 1,300 miles away, not to me.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Everything seemed more real than reality.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was conscious the whole time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time did not exist.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I could see all around me, it was like using another set of eyes.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Dark like a starless night sky, the 'tunnel's' walls were not solid.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes But it was very vague and far off in the distance. The experience ended before I had a clear view of the light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Initially frightened, then peace, comfort, love, and connectedness.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I was having a NDE at the time of my mother's death.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Feel more spiritual.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Feel more spiritual.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain Oneness.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Too soon to tell.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are no words to completely describe the feelings or features of the event.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Too soon to tell.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Shared it immediately. Different reactions from different people.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It happened - no doubt.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It was real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No