Experience Description

I remember looking down seeing the nurse and doctor working on me then I am walking down what I believe was the hall of the hospital, everything was very bright white, it was like I was floating. I remember going past a door and I looked through the glass to see my mother (who was alive). I put my hands out but never touched the door, it opens, and my mother was waiting for me to get out of surgery. She had turned her chair around for all the other chairs also I remember them being very bright blue. My mother was reading a book I go to put my hand on her but then I notice there was a lady in the corner with long brown hair she had on an orange and brown wrap around her. Then I look to my mother again and as I go to call her name I feel as though I see hands touch my feet they - were black hands. There was no one black in the surgery room that I knew of. Then I felt as though I was falling down a tunnel and then I woke up. I go home an hour after surgery and I thought it was a dream.

I did not sleep that night at all - driving my girlfriend and husband crazy because I felt as though I was full of life and could not sit down. The next morning I called my mother to tell her of the dream that I could not get out of my mind - it was as if it just kept repeating itself in my mind. My mother was speechless because the woman I saw there with her came in after I was out and left with her son while I was still in surgery. She had moved her chair around from all the rest of them so she could watch for my father and husband. Also, the anesthesiologist was called away and another one was called in, he was a black man whom I never saw. After I woke up the nurse at hospital told me about him after I ask her if I almost died, she said yes twice. I was to be there three hours but it took six and a half hours.

I believe God gave me this experience for one reason. That is because my nineteen year old son was killed on April 9, 2005. I could not sleep that night and at 1:35 am I was on my computer and all of a sudden I saw the brightest light come up from between my arms and yell, 'Mom!!!' Very loud. It shook me up so bad I knew someone had died but my mind would not accept that it said mom!! I remember looking up and I smiled at what I knew was there - not knowing it was my son until 4:00 am when the phone rang. I jumped out of bed and I did not answer the phone by me, I ran to the other side of the house to answer it. That is where I was when it happened the person on the phone said, 'Tina, how is Chase?' I dropped the phone because at that moment I realized it said mom!!! I ran to my husband and yelled, 'Chase is dead! Oh God, he is dead! And they are on phone!' He ran to the phone as I ran to the front door to see the Chaplin putting on his coat and collar at his car with the police. I then remember hearing those words, 'I am sorry Mrs. G,' and hearing my husband scream. After that, it is like we went in to shutdown mode. But I do believe I had this so that God would let my son come home to say goodbye. And I would know it was him.

We, my son Chase and I had been seeing someone follow behind him for about six months. I saw it first and never told anyone but my husband and girlfriend Gina. Then he was on vacation with his cousin and he called to let me know he made it there and all of a sudden, he screamed he saw a man in their room - a large man wearing a plaid like shirt that is what I had been seeing but there would be no one there when I looked again. I was so scared after he saw it too; it was two months later he died. The only one to die out of three people in the truck he was in. He knew he was going to heaven, he left me many notes about it in his room, and all kinds of music about going to heaven I never knew he had gotten in the two weeks before he was gone. Thank you God for letting him come home. See, he was only eight blocks from home, and on his way home. And I know he comes to visit all the time. Again, thank you Lord Almighty. I love you Chase.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: May 1, 2003

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Surgery-related Other PLASTIC SURGERY breast

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal I knew something was not right when she did not look at me.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When seeing my mother and then my son at home two years later.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Everything was very bright.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes On the way back I felt myself falling like feeling.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My mother and another woman I did not know, there was no talking, I wanted to say mom look at me I think I knew she did not know I was there.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace and love all around me even when I could not see anyone.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate GREW UP CHURCH OF GOD DAD WAS PREACHER.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believe in God and our life after we die.

What is your religion now? Moderate GREW UP CHURCH OF GOD

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe in God and our life after we die.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I believe in God and our life after we die.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My son coming home to say goodbye. I know that the first out of body thing I had was so I would know he came home, God gave that to Chase because he was a good kid and was leader to about one thousand kids who came to the funeral.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Oh my God everyone, say friend and family the day my son died I said goodbye that morning and walked in the house and said to my husband that looked like a goodbye look but I did not want to let it get to me I don't know what it was but I never would think of again that day until he did die.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. God had a reason I was not to know for two years now I do.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I am tired my heart hurts for my son.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I believe in God and our life after we die and we do see who is with us when we die.