Please understand, I have told very few people of this and only one of them I told everything to, as I will with you. I am afraid to tell people of this because of what it leaves me open to. At times, I think I'm crazy because of this. Well, anyway no one can pass judgment on me here.
It happened on July 4, 1974. I was six years old and was walking down the down the street holding my mother's hand. I saw a horse across the street, let go of my mom's hand and ran between two parked cars. Then I heard people screaming 'STOP'. So I stopped. The next thing I saw was a car coming toward me. I was hit, thrown through the air, and landed on the back of my head. (I was later told that it was eighty feet.) I heard screaming then everything went blank.
I do remember sirens and seeing my mom crying in the back of an ambulance. But it was from above. Then again, everything is blank.
The next thing I remember was I was floating in the most peaceful place. There was singing, which was the most beautiful thing I ever heard. Then I was approached by a man. He told me that I had to go back, that it was not my time. (I wanted to stay. I did not want to leave.) He had then shown me his wrists and right foot. There were wounds. He told me not to be afraid. He then told me that in the most troubling time in my life he would be there and to have no fear.
He then took me to a place where he then left me. Then an immense light appeared. I was told to look into it. There was an image of enormous size and distance. I was told some things, but I don't really remember what it was. I think I was told I would never come back, but I am not sure.
Then on the last part of this journey, I was sent to a very dismal place. Everything was grey. On the left side of me were dead trees. At the base of the trees was a dirt road. At the right of me was nothing but grey. (Please don't think I am crazy about this next thing. I know it sounds crazy.) I had seen animals coming toward me. There was about six or seven. A big owl like bird silently flew into the trees and perched there. The funny thing is that these dog-like animals all had human faces. In color. They told me who they were. The biggest one introduced himself as 'alcohol'. They didn't seem to be very interested in me. One of these animals got on the another's back (which later in life I realized to be sex). I can still see some of the faces to this day. Anyway, they turned around and left.
The next thing I remember was waking up in the hospital. I had a cast on my skull and was very nerve damaged. But the very first thing I said was, 'I don't want to die.' I don't know why I said that. Maybe it was because my mother said something that I picked up when I was unconscious. It turns out that I was in a coma for a month. Bad head injury.
I had amnesia at the time. Couldn't remember a thing. But as time went on and as I regained my past, I started to remember things about this. I never started talking about them until I was a teenager. Then I learned it's better not to say anything.
It's funny though, I did struggle with alcoholism in my late twenties. I have been clean for years. And last year when my world was collapsing, I developed marks on my wrists and right foot that bear a striking resemblance to the ones I had seen on the man. At that time, I was really struggling over my life and about those memories I had, if they really happened or not. I still don't know. A few years ago, I tried to get a hold of Sylvia Brown to get an answer. I talked with her son and I couldn't afford the $800.00 she charges. I tried to get a hold of the neurosurgeon who operated on my brain, but he never returned my calls. I guess I am left with the same mystery that I started with.
I just wish my life would take a turn for the better. You see, I know that I would never hurt myself in any way, shape or form. But I do feel that at this time there is no way out of the bad life I am in. So I have to do what I at least think I was told to do. Keep the faith.
I hope that someone can relate to the experience I have had. Maybe it can bring some closure to an ever embattling mind struggle that I deal with every day.
This is the truth, as for the things that I recall; I do know that I should not bear false witness to this. That would be wrong. So please, somebody has to believe me. I am not crazy. Thank you.
Date NDE Occurred: 'July 4, 1974'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes AccidentDirect head injury I ran in the street between 2 parked cars to see a horse on the other side of the street. Other I imagine it was a clinical death in the ambulance. I was a six year old who had been hit by a speeding car. I was thrown eighty feet and landed on the back of my head.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As described.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I don't know.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? The singing I heard was beautiful.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I don't remember.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes As described above.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Where iI was
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, serenity, joy.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I was only six years old.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate none. I was too small to have a knowledge of religion.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate Catholic.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The last person I told was a counselor whom I was going to about this and some other things.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real. Sorry, it took me a little longer to remember.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No