Thomas A ICU

Experience Description 6561

I was raised in church and I know I have failed God a lot of my life, but I always did want to serve God. I have known some very bad people in my life. Mafia people. If I told you what I know, you would wet your pants. At one time, I was offered a job as an enforcer by some very high-ups in the Mafia. I turned them down. I've always been a tough person and have had the ability to be mean when it's been needed.

Five days a week, I would go to the gym to lift weights, but this one day, I felt a pain in my chest. I called for help and went downstairs to wait for the fire department to come pick me up and take me to the hospital. I woke up just as I was being cut open. There was blood everywhere and people were screaming at each other. I felt blood spraying my face and tasted the blood on my lips. I heard the saw cut through the ribs in my chest. I felt it all. I was strapped down and not able to move. I felt it all, and I heard everything that was said in the operating room. I knew I was going to die due to the amount of blood there was and how damaged my body seemed to be. My nurse was in a screaming match with her co-workers as well as the nuns, who were holding hands and praying for me. I also saw my wife, who was crying, along with two of our sons. My sons were both were mad about something. I didn't know what they were so mad at, but I could do nothing about it, I was strapped down. I felt my soul leave my body and then I started walking around in the hospital. I saw some hospital staff and listened to them talk about me. They could not see me. They were saying that they didn't think I was going to make it off the operating table alive.

Then I found myself walking on a very smooth path that was about twenty feet wide, following the sound of music and angels singing. It was beautiful! I went through very large gates that were made of iron and gold, with small golden figures attached to them. I saw a wall that was made of cut stone. It was very smooth to the touch. I heard a man speaking to me, saying ‘Tommy, come here!’ and it was my grandfather Tom leaning against the wall. He said, ‘Tommy, don't go down there!’ He pointed to the right and I saw a long, wide walkway that sloped in a downward direction. On that walkway, there were hundreds of poor people being dragged along by small men who were attacking them, biting them and beating them as they went. The smell was the worst thing that I have ever smelled. The smell of burning flesh. When I was a child I had smelled that same smell coming from a car crash site that was on fire, but this was far worse than that. As I walked away, I looked back and saw another long walkway from which I could still hear beautiful singing, more beautiful than anything I had ever heard before. However, I walked back out through the gates, turned to the right and proceeded down a long road that was made of cut stone, but very soft to walk on. Next, I found myself back on the operating table covered in blood.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: Aug. 23 2011

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) I was lifting weights when I had a descending aortic aneurism rupture in my chest.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I heard and felt everything as it happened.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw better and more clearly.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard everything that was said in the operating room. I felt it all, as well.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It was my grandfather Tom.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I saw both Heaven and Hell.

The experience included: Hellish imagery

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sadness due to missing my wife. She has always been my best friend. She was crying all over me.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes There was a wall just inside the gates of heaven.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will After talking with my grandfather, I turned away and walked back down the road.

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian I was raised in the assemblies of god church as a child but left to go to the southern baptist church

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am more committed to serving Christ.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant I left the assemblies of God church due to what I thought were people who were pretenders not contenders

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am more aware of Christ all around me, along with demons that can't get close to me.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I am more aware of God and have seen things that no one around me can see, and I still do. I saw evil beings along with Christ. God has spoken to me and told me that nothing will happen to my family, they are protected.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I think people think of me as crazy.

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes No one believes me but my wife.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I saw rhings I never have seen before and have this feeling that we as followers of Christ have been fooled by the so-called men of God that preach in our churches. I really think its all about the money in most churches

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I feel a Holy feeling all around me now all the time.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes. Seeing my grandfather and talking to him.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Almost every day. People think I'm off my bean.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was and is real. I can't really get it out to exclaim it to people enough.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes. Both Heaven and Hell are real.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Yes. I'm still trying to sort it all out.



Experience Description 6658

I woke up after I went down at the gym to the sound of screaming of the hospital staff and watched a saw cutting my ribs apart. I felt it all and heard it too. I felt myself drifting away as if I was riding on air. I felt and overheard everything that was said for hours in the operating room. I found myself walking down a roadway of smooth cut stones. I came to a gate that was made of gold. It was open, so I walked in to see my Grandfather Tom leaning on a wall. He called me over and smelled of gasoline. He was wearing a work shirt from his gas station. He told me, ‘Tommy don't go down there!’ I looked and saw the worst thing I have ever seen in my life. There were many people being bitten and beaten by demons with large teeth. The screams were so bad that I can still hear them today. I turned back to my right and walked back through the gates and walked on down this long road made of smooth stones. I listened to beautiful music but kept walking away. I awoke to see my wife crying and the nuns praying and crying also. This was like a horror movie playing out and I was the star of the show. I can't shake this and can't really relate to anyone about this. No one understands this or can explain it. I could talk about this for hours. It upsets me that people kind of think I'm crazy. Well, I'm not crazy. Heaven and Hell are real places, and you don't want to go to hell. I will talk to anyone about this, but no one wants to hear it.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: Aug. of last year

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' I had an aortic descending aneurysm.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I overheard everything said in the operating room. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It was as if no one knew that I was awake and could hear and feel everything.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I saw it all and felt it all.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was nothing said that I didn't hear or see.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. About the same, but it seemed like I was in a cave with the way I heard things.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandfather and many dead people being beaten and taken down a long walkway.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I saw both Heaven and Hell. Heaven was beautiful with the smell of flowers. Hell had the most horrible smell.

The experience included: Hellish imagery

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sad for my wife and three grown sons.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I saw walls and smooth stone walkway.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I saw my wife crying and wanted to help her.

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant I was raised un the Assembly of God church but left due to their lack of compassion for my fellow man and all of the shenanigans going on there, inside with the church staff.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I have found that most of the church world really don't get it. Most are going to Hell while they sit in church and hear the word of God.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Heaven and Hell are real places

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes I saw my grandfather Tom Frasher

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I was told to Not go down there!

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I felt God in the area and peace and relaxation on the Heaven side, but real pain on the Hell side

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I moderately fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I have seen beings walking around my home and felt God close by me.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I am a very still person. I stay to myself.

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It’s hard to explain. No one believes me but my wife.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I saw it all and felt it too.as well as heard it to

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I see spirits walking around my home. I can feel evil when I go out into a public place.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I have always known that Heaven was real, but never thought I would see it while I was alive.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Beginning the very first week while still in the hospital.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It’s all real and no one but my wife believes me.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It all happened.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I see beings walking around day and night both inside and outside my home.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I wish people would believe me, I'm not crazy!

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Wow, it was a rough one to even tell about. I think you have covered it all. Thank you for listening to me.



Experience Description 6626

I was raised in church and I know I have failed God a lot of my life, but I always did want to serve God. I have known some very bad people in my life. Mafia people. If I told you what I know, you would wet your pants. At one time, I was offered a job as an enforcer by some very high-ups in the Mafia. I turned them down. I've always been a tough person and have had the ability to be mean when it's been needed.

Five days a week, I would go to the gym to lift weights, but this one day, I felt a pain in my chest. I called for help and went downstairs to wait for the fire department to come pick me up and take me to the hospital. I woke up just as I was being cut open. There was blood everywhere and people were screaming at each other. I felt blood spraying my face and tasted the blood on my lips. I heard the saw cut through the ribs in my chest. I felt it all. I was strapped down and not able to move. I felt it all, and I heard everything that was said in the operating room. I knew I was going to die due to the amount of blood there was and how damaged my body seemed to be. My nurse was in a screaming match with her co-workers as well as the nuns, who were holding hands and praying for me. I also saw my wife, who was crying, along with two of our sons. My sons were both were mad about something. I didn't know what they were so mad at, but I could do nothing about it, I was strapped down. I felt my soul leave my body and then I started walking around in the hospital. I saw some hospital staff and listened to them talk about me. They could not see me. They were saying that they didn't think I was going to make it off the operating table alive.

Then I found myself walking on a very smooth path that was about twenty feet wide, following the sound of music and angels singing. It was beautiful! I went through very large gates that were made of iron and gold, with small golden figures attached to them. I saw a wall that was made of cut stone. It was very smooth to the touch. I heard a man speaking to me, saying ‘Tommy, come here!’ and it was my grandfather Tom leaning against the wall. He said, ‘Tommy, don't go down there!’ He pointed to the right and I saw a long, wide walkway that sloped in a downward direction. On that walkway, there were hundreds of poor people being dragged along by small men who were attacking them, biting them and beating them as they went. The smell was the worst thing that I have ever smelled. The smell of burning flesh. When I was a child I had smelled that same smell coming from a car crash site that was on fire, but this was far worse than that. As I walked away, I looked back and saw another long walkway from which I could still hear beautiful singing, more beautiful than anything I had ever heard before. However, I walked back out through the gates, turned to the right and proceeded down a long road that was made of cut stone, but very soft to walk on. Next, I found myself back on the operating table covered in blood.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: Aug. 2011

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' I was lifting weights when I had a descending aortic aneurism rupture in my chest.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I heard and felt everything as it happened.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw better and more clearly.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard everything that was said in the operating room. I felt it all, as well.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It was my grandfather Tom.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I saw both Heaven and Hell.

The experience included: Hellish imagery

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sadness due to missing my wife. She has always been my best friend. She was crying all over me.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes There was a wall just inside the gates of heaven.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will After talking with my grandfather, I turned away and walked back down the road.

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant I grew up in the assemblies of God church in K.C. Mo. and left them to attend the Bapyist church, I was called by God to be a Missionary, to Africa, and due to bad advice and being 17, I walked away from the Mission field.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am more committed to serving Christ.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant I have been raised in the church but left the Assemblies of God due to the silly games that were played in the church.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am more aware of Christ all around me, along with demons that can't get close to me.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes Yes I saw my grandfather Tom Frasher

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I greatly fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I am more aware of God and have seen things that no one around me can see, and I still do. I saw evil beings along with Christ. God has spoken to me and told me that nothing will happen to my family, they are protected.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I think people think of me as crazy.

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes No one believes me but my wife.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience My wife can back up nearly everything that has happened

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I feel a Holy feeling all around me now all the time.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes. Seeing my grandfather and talking to him.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Almost every day. People think I'm off my bean.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was and is real. I can't really get it out to exclaim it to people enough.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes. Both Heaven and Hell are real.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Yes. I'm still trying to sort it all out.