On March 16, 2006 my seizure activity began to increase. I was having an unknown amount of seizures û unknown because my wife was working and was not there to keep track of them. As a result, I grew more and more depressed. Then on May 4, 2006 I apparently had multiple seizures and during what I call my 'buzz zone' (where I am not fully awake or not having a full seizure), I took forty 100mg tablets of the anti-depressant medication, Elavil. My wife called the ambulance and I was taken to the hospital.
While in the emergency room, I remember falling 'asleep'. When I was 'asleep', I floated above my body. I could see the doctors and nurses in my room. I continued to float away - the further away I floated, the calmer things felt around me. I heard soft, gentle sounds around me but couldn't make out any particular sound or song. Also, the further I travelled, the more I could hear voices calling to me to continue coming. I felt total love and acceptance from these voices I started seeing shapes of people but couldn't make out faces or genders - all were the same. They all showed love, understanding, and compassion for me, like I have never felt. Then I started hearing another voice telling me to 'drink this.' I didn't want to at first, but as I continued to listen, I drank the drink. It tasted horrible. I didn't want to drink anymore but the voice kept saying to keep drinking and to drink it all and I would be all right. The next thing I remember is waking up.
I was so angry that I wasn't able to stay with those other people that I have since sought any way possible to get back to them. I can't commit suicide because I promised my wife I wouldn't do that again but I still look and hope that I can get back there as soon as I possibly can.
Date NDE Occurred: May 4, 2006
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No IllnessSuicide attempt Life threatening event, but not clinical death.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I felt healthy and didn't have any disabilities.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The part where I could see people.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time seemed to stop
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I didn't have to wear glasses and every color was very exact.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I wasn't deaf in my left ear and all sound, even though it wasn't a clear song, was clean and clear.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Just shapes of people no features or genders.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pure love, understanding and comfort.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Spiritual but not religious
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Same
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I can't think of anything else.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The part where the people were asking me to come and the part where I felt totally loved by all around me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I believe in a place where we will all go to be together.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No