This was my 4th child , and he like the rest were born at home. My husband was a doctor, and it always seemed to me that we were over prepared, with medical equipment etc. Except this time, the room looked sparse to me. Later I found out that he feared something would go wrong and some weird denial took over, and he talked himself out of trouble. Also as a note, he had started to have feelings for a female patient of his, which I was also I think in denial about. After giving birth to my sweet Boy, I began to hemorrhage. We also had a midwife helping, who turned to my husband and asked for the shot to stop the bleeding. His face turned white, and the look passed between them was unforgettable panic. At that point, I passed out.
I remember walking along a long corridor of light with a man that I couldn't see, and could only hear. I could see ahead of us a group of people standing there, just there shapes and sizes, no features. I also felt I knew these people. I must have asked my male friend, repeatedly, why am I so happy? I just left my new baby, and my other three children, and my family, because it was Thanksgiving night and all of our family were there watching the birth and eating turkey. I felt whole and complete Love and Peace. I was so curious why I would feel so happy, and not miss anything or anyone. Then my friend spoke to me and said 'you have known them all before and you will know them all again, there is no loss.' He then told me that I had a choice, I could go with him or I could go back. Then pictures began to flash within me I guess, and I believe I saw the future, because I knew that I would be raising the children by myself and they would need me with them. Then I felt, oh yes I must go back. That seems to be when I came back into consciousness. Barely alive, but alive!
Date NDE Occurred: 11/24/88
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' . I hemorrhaged after giving birth to a 10 lb baby boy
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I was talking with my guide, or friend.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was talking with my guide, or friend.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Every sense was alive
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I just remember every word like it was yesterday
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes like a tunnel
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I met a man whom I could not see, yet his voice was calm and loving, also I could see people up ahead, but could not see there details.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Everything seemed to be a soft glowing white light
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Every moment was beautiful
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? LOVE< and WHOLENESS
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I saw future events, I knew I would be raising my children by myself basically, and I was very important to them. Also, I do not fear death, my own or others
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes My guide and myself only walked so far down the tunnel, and we stopped.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Yes, but I don't know why I know this, I just do Like, I was changed forever, strangely fearless, and I am certain that this life is not what's really who I am.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes very hard to put into words, definitely they are richer, yet I feel less clingy, or possessive
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It's hard to express the tremendous feelings of Love and wholeness
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Most of my life I have had other worldly experiences, I think for whatever reason, I am letting them come in stronger and more freely just recently
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I still think about how wonderfully whole and happy I felt, even though I was leaving people I loved
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No When I was stronger physically I told my husband first, He had a hard time with it because he felt he nearly caused my death
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I was brought up with a mother who was very metaphysical, I always gravitated towards the unusual.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. the experience is definitely altering the way I view life, it seems more important and less important at the same time, the gift that keeps on giving
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Dreaming has become my favorite pastime, or in deep meditation, I feel closest to that experience
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I think this altered my sons life too, being so connected at birth, like he tapped into the altered space as well, also I think he's always been afraid I would leave him