Experience Description

I ended up at St. Anne hospital for a bad headache bringing up one minute shivering the next sweating. It was night time when I got to the hospital and my own doctor was not there so another doctor looked after me. They did not take a blood sample or check my urine. They give me Demerol for pain that's it. Early next morning my husband came to the hospital and he was shocked when he saw the condition I was in. He summoned the nurse to get the doctor here now or he will transfer me himself to another hospital. Later I found out it only took ten minutes for the doctor to arrive at the hospital. It's a small town hospital. When the doctor arrived he ordered blood and urine tests. By that time, I had red patches all over me and I knew that I was deathly ill I was scared. Results came back very shortly. My doctor said that I'm very ill and full of infection. My husband will have to sign a paper that he will be responsible for my trip to St. Boniface hospital in Winnipeg as my doctor thought I will not make the trip. But he also said that at this hospital I will surely die for they were not set up to be able to help me. Everything happened very fast after the papers were signed.

They put me in the ambulance and we were off. My husband followed the ambulance. He later told me he was crying so hard while driving he didn't know how he did it. I was losing consciousness in the ambulance but I thought hold on with all my strength. I felt I was slipping away fast. The next thing I noticed I was without pain. More alert my mind has never been clearer or more alive that at that moment. Then I noticed I was in what people call a tunnel.

At that time, I didn't know where I was. I was going down feet first so fast I can't even put it into words. I looked at myself I had the hospital gown on and it didn't even move. I got very scared because it was so black and I also noticed that it has rings around it like a vacuum hose. It still gives me shivers as I'm writing this. As a catholic, I thought I was going to hell for we are taught that hell is below us.

I didn't see or hear anyone but I did feel that I wasn't alone. Then I started speaking to God. I'll never forget it I said father do with me as you will I hand my life over to you. As soon as I said that, I was back in my body. How I can't say I just was. I looked at the person sitting with me and he was slapping my face calling my name. He said I thought we lost you. When we arrived at the hospital there was a whole bunch of doctors waiting for my arrival.

Well I'm here writing to whoever reads this. I know I was sent back to help many children for we are foster parents among other things. My life has changed a lot since my experience for the better. To be given another chance at life how many people can say that. I told a few people about my experience. Some believed me some not. That's okay, it's what I learned from it anyway that's important. When their time comes, they will know that there is so much more to life than just our earthly existence. I thank God so much for letting me come back and live according to his teachings. Mind you, I'm far from perfect even now but now I work a lot harder at being a better person. This is the true account of my experience. THANK-YOU my LORD.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: May 1993

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' I went in and out of consciousness for how long I'm not sure. This happened in the ambulance as i was transported to a larger hospital. I was critical.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal In daily life I think of what I have to do sometimes forgetting. In the tunnel, it's amazingly hard to explain but I'll try. In this life it's like were walking around half asleep. In the tunnel my mind was alert bright clear it can't compare it to my earthly mind.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While in the tunnel.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I knew I was not in my body.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your vision differ in any way from normal? It was very bright.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Clarity is unbelievable.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was very black kind of spinning around me as I was going straight down.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Void

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? What am I doing in this dark tube and where am I going?

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist I was raised as a catholic and it's my belief.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Of course it changed. I know for sure that God loves us and is there for us all the time.

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Of course it changed. I know for sure that God loves us and is there for us all the time.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That there is life for sure beyond our earthly life. I'm very in tune with people's feelings and what they are going to say before they open there mouth.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes How black everything was and the speed. While this was happening, I looked at myself and the hospital gown didn't move an inch. I thought, 'How can this be?'

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Like I said earlier I can read minds.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? How fast I re-entered my body after I handed my life over to God.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It took me months. The reaction was good and not so good. Some people were influenced.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. As real as I'm writing to you. I can't make someone believe my experience it was mine to learn from. People have choices to believe what they want. It's between me and God what happened. I was numb for a long time after it happened. I wanted to shout it out for people to wake up and to live right for sooner or later everyone will go through it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Very real. And currently even more for my life is so blessed.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I wish there would be a group I could join so as not to feel like this only happened to me. Now I know that many people went through this. But it would be so good to meet with other people like me.