I was visiting a friend in Lompoc, California. As I was sweeping her kitchen, a fire extinguisher was knocked down and fell on my foot. She took me to the emergency room to see if my foot was broken. When I got to the ER, the doctor took x-rays, and the nurse gave me medicine for the pain. I have asthma, and the pain in my foot made me have an asthma attack, so the nurse also gave me a breathing treatment. After the breathing treatment, I was still having difficulty breathing. However, the nurse and doctor left me alone while we waited for the results of the x-rays. My breathing got worse, and I felt my throat closing up. I could hardly get air into my lungs. I pushed the call button for the nurse, and all she told me was, ‘Relax, and take deep breaths’. She said I was only having trouble breathing because I was anxious about the pain, and that the key was to relax. I could feel there was more going on than that, but she left the room, and I began to panic because I could still hardly get any air into my lungs. I needed to talk to someone who would listen to me, but I couldn't call out for anyone, since I could hardly breathe. When I tried to get up to go find someone, I fell onto the floor of my hospital room in a panic. I kept struggling to get air into my lungs, but I could not. I clawed at my throat.
Suddenly, I felt my body relax completely. Surrounded by darkness, I heard beautiful, gothic-type music, like angels singing. I felt myself floating – completely at peace – so happy!
When I woke up hours later, I was in the ICU and had a breathing tube down my throat. The doctor said that when they had found me, I had stopped breathing, and that they did not know how long I had been unconscious.
Date NDE Occurred: 'July 14,2006'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic reaction Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Right before I stopped breathing. I remember telling myself in my mind to stop fighting the lack of oxygen and to give up. I heard the music when I stopped fighting to get air in my lungs. I noticed the blackness, and I felt extreme peace and contentment.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It seemed like time stood still. When I woke up in the ICU, it was many hours later – but to me it felt like a matter of seconds.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was clear – and I usually have poor vision.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard music, and it was loud – like I was in the front row at a concert – but it was also beautiful and soothing.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No I was surrounded by darkness, but it was peaceful nonetheless.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt peaceful and extremely happy.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt that I was about to go somewhere safe. I did not see the darkness as an ominous sign. I think the darkness was there because it was not my time, and I needed to go back. I believe I would have seen the light if it had been my time.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Now I can tell who is on the phone before it rings, and I can tell when someone is going to knock on the door before they knock.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? This experience changed my life. I woke up in awe, and it changed my outlook on life. When I woke up, I wanted to go right back there! No, I did not become suicidal, but I felt I could not wait to go back to that place. I have always been terrified about death. Now I am excited about it.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Right away, I saw the experience as ‘definitely real’. I may have joked about it to friends, but I knew it was definitely real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still see it as 'definitely real'. It was real – because I still feel the peace, and I am still excited about death.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was an extremely positive experience that changed my life. I had always been terrified to die. Now I know it will not be the end, but the beginning of something new.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? The questionnaire was wonderful!