Sylvie A NDE

Describe the Experience 10/7/18:

My family situation was not happy. At the divorce of my parents, I suffered a lot with them constantly reporting their grievances to me. I didn't exist anymore. Then my father abused me, and to survive this I took refuge in denial. My mother constantly charged me for the fact that I wanted to live with my father and his second wife. My mother neglected me, beat me when I was younger, and, as an adolescent, she left me in dangerous situations. Moreover, even though I was a good pupil and my professors tried to help me, my mother was against it. I started to make myself suffer. I was anorexic for several months. I saw my future like a black tunnel, and I had absolutely no taste for life anymore. It happened in August 1979 I was seventeen; I decided to suicide. I swallowed tablets and bleach, and I knew that nobody would find me for several hours. When my sister found me, the family doctor didn't want to intervene according to my mother. When the ambulance arrived, the paramedic said to my mother that I would not reach the hospital in time.

At that moment, I was already out of my body. When the ambulance arrived, the paramedic said to my mother that I would not reach the hospital in time.

Then I found myself in a luminous and soft place. White figures talked gently to me, and they told me a lot of things about myself. I didn't remember anything afterwards. The thing I remember is that I wanted to stay, and that they told me that it was not the moment. To help me decide, they showed me the interior of the ambulance. I heard the paramedic tell my mother that I would not make it to the hospital, and I saw her crying sincerely.

I woke up several days later at the hospital. They made me go home. The doctors required my mother to take care of me telling her that she should not leave me alone and that she should bring me for consultation to the psychiatric hospital. During all the days following this, I only wanted to dress in white. When I went to consult a psychiatrist, he told me after the last session that it was not me having a problem.


I am an artist. The first picture is about the place I went but is how I see it from here now. There is the tree with golden leaves, and the source which is like an ocean. The second picture is something the Earth shared with me. It is the beauty of the earth when she is breathing. The last picture is something I received during my morning meditation two weeks ago. Otherwise I’m painting flowers and animals to warn people about their desperation and the fact that we need everyone and everythingto live in harmony on Earth.




Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1979 August

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I swallowed tablets and bleach.When the ambulance arrived, the paramedic said to my mother that I would not reach the hospital in time.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes And the facts have been checked out my consciousness was separated from my body. I was shown the interior of the ambulance where it was at that time. I heard the dialog between the paramedic and my mother. I knew that I was dying. After the experience, I asked my mother if all this was true. She confirmed it. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal More consciousness and alertness than normal. When I was in the light and with the white beings, one in particular; were speaking to me. I often have this level of consciousness and lucidity. It was a very particular state of being, as I knew plenty of things. It was as if I were part of this light and these beings. It happens to me sometimes to feel again this level of consciousness and lucidity

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I found myself up in the light

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I had the knowledge that there is no time. I knew everything. I only had to think about something and was able to see it. For example, when I wonder what happened to me I saw the ambulance on the road.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the experience my vision was sharper. I could see far from the place of light where I was, further than I could have done in an ordinary state.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I had no impression to have hearing, as everything that I heard was straight in my mind.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I remember I thinking about my gran gran-pa who came (in my dreams) to say goodbye when he died.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I was surrounded by an wonderful light that was a sweet and warm light

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I was floating in this wonderful light. There was light as far as I could see. I remember a tree and a source, but they were not like on earth

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was so happy! l never was so happy in my life before. I was loved, unbelievably loved. I felt good. I was belonging to a whole. I felt communion, a serene and peaceful love. I knew everything.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I had the feeling like I was a part of the universe, like a cell connected to the other cells in the big bath of the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future. The white being showed me my future. Then he or she told me that I will have no memory of what I had just seen. They will always watch over me and when the moment will come, they will help me (all of them)

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I saw a tree and a source and wanted to stay there forever but the white being told me that it was not the time yet. He or she told me it was the last time on earth for me and showed me my future to convince me. Then he or she told me that I will have no memory of what I had just seen. They will always watch over me and when the moment will come, they will help me (all of them)

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic I received a Catholic education; At the time of my suicide, I was very disappointed by religion and the behavior of people

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No. They evolved and got stronger.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths. Since my experience, I have understood that the values that were important to me were found in all religions and that they are universal. Moreover, these values are part of this immense love that I felt when I was in the light. I kept them and I think it more accurate to say that I believe in spirituality. I am a theist. I believe that there is a universal link of all embodied and non-incarnated souls, that we are guided and that we each have a particular mission here below; and as modest as it may seem, it participates in a great whole, for the greater good of all beings.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I began to perceive what was revealed to me and confirmed by the light beings since I was little. It's a little as if I had been accompanied. It started with the death of my great-grandfather whom I knew little, he died 800 km from my home. He came to talk to me in my sleep the week after we received the news by mail. Since that moment, I knew the existence of afterlife, and the connection between the death people and the living one. I was able too to be connected to other people

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Because they evolved, I was raised Christian. But after the experience, I have been interested in other religions and I respect all of them. I believe they are all speaking about the same things. They share the same wisdom and love.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I encountered a definite being who took care of me. Others were there. It seems they were communicating all together but just one was talking to me. It can be described as a voice of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Because when the white being told me that it was my last time on earth, I knew we all have several lives on earth

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I felt it and lived that when I was in the light and the beings spoke to me. I felt it before my experience, but it was confirmed at that moment. I strongly believe in that there is a universal link of all embodied and non-incarnated souls.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes The light beings gave me information about what my life would be so that I would comprehend it. They also told me that I would have no memories about what they told me, but that it would guide me. I believe that I would be helping people to care for their soul, to love themselves, to love life on Earth. They gave me the assurance that I would find the love I needed. They told me that I have something to contribute to humanity.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes The white being told me that we are guided and that each one of us have a particular mission on earth; and as modest as it may seem, it participates in a great whole, for the greater good of all beings and the humanity. This is necessary that we accept our role on earth so that humanity can evolve.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists Because the white being told me that it was my last time on earth and that I will come back with them

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes We are all connected. What each well-intentioned person does individually and those giving love universally contribute to improve the world. That's the reason we sometimes receive information about important events happening in places very far from us. Sometimes we have the feeling that we are the only one awake and conscious of the importance of our deeds. But, in fact, we are many and sometimes we meet.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes The beings of light have given to me information about what my life would be so that I could understand it. They also told me that I would have no more memory of what they were telling me but that they would guide me

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes The love I felt during my experience was so intense that I was very afraid and desperate to come back on earth and don't feel it anymore. I grew up without love. They told me, they promised me that I would find the love I needed

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Before the experience, I knew that I was watched over. Since the experience, I live knowing that I was guided; that I followed a path, and that I have something to bring, a contribution to the humanity. Before the experience I had dream premonitions. I received information to deliver to people who needed to hear them to cross a stage of their life. Sometimes I could heal something. I already felt the presence of missing people who asked me to leave a place and when that happens, I help them. I feel what happened in some places or in the lives of some people. I am driven to make decisions that seem very strange to people around me but are always good. These faculties have not disappeared with age; they evolved and are stronger now. There was a period of my life where I was scared, but now I'm good. I accepted them again with gratitude.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Forty years later, I remember every detail as if it was yesterday.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes. Yes and no: because before the experience, I had dream premonitions. I received information to deliver to people who needed to hear them to cross a stage of their life. Sometimes I could heal something. I already felt the presence of missing people who asked me to leave a place and when that happens, I help them. I feel what happened in some places or in the lives of some people. I am driven to make decisions that seem very strange to people around me but are always good. These faculties have not disappeared with age; they evolved and are stronger now. There was a period of my life where I was scared, but now I'm good. I accepted them again with gratitude.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes I understood that they helped me to understood that every life is important on earth, each one without any exception brings something to help the humanity to evolve. That’s why I was sent back, even if I had a real reason to die.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Some days later, I told it to my mother to get confirmation and then to the psychiatrist. They listened to me but didn’t believe me, even if my mother knew already that I had some special abilities since I was little.

Did you have any knowledge of near-death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was as if a part of me were staying up there. Then I gradually came back to Earth. It was as if I were being protected by making me come back gradually in order that I could well integrate what I was told. I lived between two worlds for at least a month.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I still can feel it over four years later. Since then, I was again in contact with the light and the white beings. Mostly when all the things I suffered came back in my memory when I had to testify at my ex-husband trial because he abused his daughter-in-law for several years. I needed therapy and almost wanted to die again. They talked to me again. They gave me the knowledge about those events I’ll have to overcome they gave me the strength to come through because it was a part of my purpose: to end the vicious circle. When I started to translate for NDERF I received a message too.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? We are all connected. What each well-intentioned person does individually and those giving love universally contribute to improve the world. That's the reason we sometimes receive information about important events happening in places very far from us. Sometimes we have the feeling that we are the only one awake and conscious of the importance of our deeds, but, in fact, we are many and sometimes we meet.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I don’t have any.

Experience Description 5/26/14:

My family situation was not happy. At the divorce of my parents, I suffered a lot with them constantly reporting their grievances to me. I didn't exist anymore. Then my father abused me, and to survive this I took refuge in denial. My mother constantly charged me for the fact that I wanted to live with my father and his second wife. My mother neglected me, beat me when I was younger, and, as an adolescent, she left me in dangerous situations. Moreover, even though I was a good pupil and my professors tried to help me, my mother was against it. I started to make myself suffer. I was anorexic for several months.

I saw my future like a black tunnel, and I had absolutely no taste for life anymore. I decided to suicide. I swallowed tablets and bleach, and I knew that nobody would find me for several hours. When my sister found me, the family doctor didn't want to intervene according to my mother. When the ambulance arrived, the paramedic said to my mother that I would not reach the hospital in time.

At that moment, I was already out of my body. I heard that he said that my blood pressure was too low. Then I found myself in a luminous and soft place. White figures talked gently to me, and they told me a lot of things about myself. I didn't remember anything afterwards. The thing I remember is that I wanted to stay, and that they told me that it was not the moment. To help me decide, they showed me the interior of the ambulance. I heard the paramedic tell my mother that I would not make it to the hospital, and I saw her crying sincerely.

I woke up several days later at the hospital, drugged. They made me go home. The doctors required my mother to take care of me telling her that she should not leave me alone and should bring me for consultation to the psychiatric hospital. During all the days following this, I just wanted to dress in white. When I went to consult a psychiatrist, he told me after the last session that it was not me having a problem.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: août 1979

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes When my consciousness was separated from my body, I was shown the interior of the ambulance where it was at that time. I heard the dialog between the paramedic and my mother. I knew that I was dying. Subsequently, I asked my mother if all this was true, and she confirmed it. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It depends. I often have this level of consciousness and lucidity. It was a very particular state of being, as I knew plenty of things. It was as if I were part of this light and these beings.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I found myself up in the light

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the experience, my vision was sharper. I could see far from the place of light where I was, further than I could have done in an ordinary state.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I had no impression to have hearing, as everything that I heard was straight in my mind.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was happy; I was loved, unbelievably loved. I felt good.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

The experience included: Awareness of the future

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic j'ai été élevée dans la religion catholique , ai fait ma première communion, ainsi que ma communion solennelle. j'ai perdu la foi lorsque mes parents ont divorcé et que mes prières sont restées sans réponse,et aussi en constatant que les pratiquants autour de moi se comportaient mal dès la sortie de l'église. cependant je suis restée théiste, et le suis toujours.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Buddhist je suis théiste, je crois qu'il existe un lien universel de toutes les âmes incarnées et non incarnées, que nous sommes guidés et que nous avons chacun, chacune ,une mission particulière ici bas; et qu'aussi modeste qu'elle puisse paraitre elle participe à un grand tout, pour le plus grand bien de tous les êtres;

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience les mois précédant ma tentative de suicide, j'ai commencé à percevoir ce qui m'a été révélé et confirmé par les êtres de lumière, c'est un peu comme si j'avais été accompagnée; mais je me rappelle aussi l'avoir vécu lors du décès de mon arrière grand-père que je connaissais tes peu, il est décédé à 800 km de chez moi, et il est venu me parler dans mon sommeil. la semaine d'après nous recevions la nouvelle par courrier

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes je l'ai ressenti et vécu lorsque j'étais dans la lumière et que les êtres me parlaient;

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God does not exist

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? I am uncertain if God exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes The light beings gave me information about what my life would be so that I would comprehend it. They also told me that I would have no memories about what they told me, but that it would guide me. I believe that I would be helping people to care for their soul, to love themselves, to love life on Earth. They gave me the assurance that I would find the love I needed.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes oui je sais encore que c'est ce dont les êtres m'ont parlé , je sais que c'est en moi et que cela me guide , mais c'est un sentiment très fort je n'ai aucun souvenir de ce qui m'a été dit

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes que nous sommes tous liés , que ce que chaque personne qui a de bonnes intentions et qui émet de l'amour (universel) fait isolément contribue à améliorer le monde. et que c'est aussi pour cela que parfois on reçoit des informations au sujet d'événements importants qui ont lieu dans des endroits très éloignés de nous. que l'on a parfois le sentiment d'être seul à être éveillé et conscient de l'importance de nos actes, mais que nous sommes nombreux en fait et que parfois on se rencontre;

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes oui les êtres de lumière m'ont donné des informations sur ce que serait ma vie afin de que je la comprenne, ils m'ont dit aussi que je n'aurais plus de souvenir de ce qu'ils me disaient mais que cela me guiderait

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes oui concernant l'amour dont j'avais besoin , ils m'ont donné l'assurance que je le trouverais

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Before the experience, I knew that I was watched over. Since, I live knowing that I was guided, that I followed a path.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience aujourd'hui encore je me rappelle de cette expérience , alors que je n'ai pratiquement pas de souvenir précis de cette époque de ma vie, juste des bribes ;

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Some days later I told it to my mother to get confirmations, then to the psychiatrist.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was as if a part of me were staying up there. Then I came back to Earth, progressively back to me. It was as if I were being protected by making me come back gradually in order that I could well integrate what I was told.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know that it was real, I know it intrinsically. There's no doubt in my mind that I lived it.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? We are all connected. What each well-intentioned person does individually and those giving love universally contribute to improve the world. That's the reason we sometimes receive information about important events happening in places very far from us. Sometimes we have the feeling that we are the only one awake and conscious of the importance of our deeds, but, in fact, we are many and sometimes we meet.