Experience Description

During a routine tonsillectomy, I bled out, lost pulse for 4 minutes, and turned blue. I was resuscitated. I recalled the experience of going through misty, beautiful blue veils towards a beautiful light at the end of the tunnel-like place.

It was fun and I liked it, and I believed God was talking to me, and I wanted to cross over through the last veil so much, but was told by the Voice that I could not, that it was too early for me. I was disappointed but knew I had to go back.

I have never been afraid of death since then. But one thing that has plagued me is that I was told of my purpose, but I cannot remember it. I want to find that out.

This happened in the fifties. When I first read of near death experiences, I was 16, came across a magazine article on it, and felt as though I was handed a wonderful gift: others were here who knew.

I believe it has changed me in fundamental ways that are inexplicable to most people. I am highly sensitive and very attuned to the emotional and mystical content of life. I watch people running around thinking that money and objects and power over others and using people is okay, and I'm just not into that. Which has made me feel sometimes like a visitor to this world, with attendant difficulties.

After the NDE, doctors ran tests on my mental abilities and nothing was wrong; no brain dysfunction. This has been bemusing to me.

I have a family, I work, and I function all right, but my core being is more concerned with spirit and soul than the 3D world.

I hope this makes sense. I'm trying to not be too wordy. I'd be happy to write more about it.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1958

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death My pulse was gone for 4 minutes...I'm not sure what you mean.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? No

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I felt perfectly awake.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time as we usually know it was irrelevant.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? A Voice, but it wasn't a sound as we usually know sound. It was more like music. Sort of. I can't explain this.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Beautiful blues, glowing light, glimmering, misty, shimmering.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes People I would meet in my life.

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was very bright but did not hurt at all to see it. It was entrancing.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, serenity, curiosity, happiness, contentment, freedom.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

The experience included: Vision of the future

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future This would take a lot of space to write about, but I would say it has been very accurate.

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I crossed several boundaries, but not the last one. I remember answering questions in order to cross each boundary. Although some I went through without having to answer questions.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was told I had to go back, and I was disappointed.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Lutheran

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was 9, and after that, I went back to church (we went every Sunday) and wondered about everything, whereas before I didn't really care enough to question it; and certainly not to the extent I did. I thought religion was kind of weird after that for a long time, and was mad at it as a kid.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I was very young, and while I could describe it in visual terms, describing the emotional content has always been difficult.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I haven't always used them, though.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I wish I could remember parts I forgot.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes People think it is interesting. I don't tell that many people.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Reiki attunements. Being in love.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Ask if anyone has done any artwork depicting the NDE scene. I'd like to see those.