In 2002, I had a severe car crash where I hit a tree head-on at 80 km/h. I lost consciousness several times. The steering wheel pushed me against the driverâ€™s seat. I had a series of broken ribs on both sides, a broken breastbone, and both ankles had been broken. I spent 8 weeks in intensive care. During this time, I had one or two NDEs. I never knew if they belonged together or not. I'm writing both of them down. The first experience was when my body was lying on the operating table. I had six or seven doctors and nurses around me. Yet, I was standing in a corner of the surgery room and watched for about 20 seconds to see how they were operating on me. I was weightless and slowly flying straight up. I was standing upright but not on a surface where I would have been able to stand. Surrounding me was an agreeable brightness that was white but not blinding. I felt truly good. I didn't think. I just let everything happen and it was beautiful. After a short time, I saw a gray edge above me, which was slightly bent. I moved towards this edge and when I was there, I saw my deceased mother and her mother who was my grandmother. Their faces could be recognized through brighter or darker white and it was slightly fuzzy like looking through milk glass, yet nothing was between us. My mother reached out with her hand. I knew that if I went through the door, I would be dead immediately, but that I would be in heaven. I stayed. After this, the NDE ended immediately. In the second experience, my grandmother put her hand on my mother's shoulder. Without talking but through 'thought transmission' we all knew immediately what was going happening. Within tenths of a second, my grandmother 'communicated' to my mother, that I would be there soon. Time seems to be different there because- a second can be decades or more. I didn't take my mother's hand. After that, the NDE ended immediately. Nevertheless, in both cases, I had the choice. I could have left the operating room immediately and been in 'heaven'. I could also have taken my mother's hand and would be there. My life and my way of living changed after the accident and the NDEs. At the age of 35, I'm now a pensioner and there are many things that I cannot do anymore. But the NDEs positively changed my life. I'm much more serene than before. There are many things that I don't take as seriously. I'm doing a lot more thinking instead of doing something. I'm not afraid of death any more. I rarely get upset. I have much more respect for people, animals and plants.
Date NDE Occurred: 09/2002
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Illness. While under general anesthesia. Direct head injury. Life threatening event, but not clinical death.
Car crash, causing a crushing of the lung. Several operations under full anesthesia.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was standing in the corner of the surgery room and saw how my body was being operated.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It was clear to me, that I would die.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All the time
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
The whole NDEs took but seconds, yet carried knowledge of minutes. Time went about 50 times faster.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the NDE, I was completely alert. I could think optimally and knew about things that I couldn't have known in my everyday life.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There were absolutely no noises.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Probably a tunnel that was pleasantly white. I saw no borders or inside walls.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Mother and Grandmother, who were both deceased; and both were Christian-Evangelical-Lutheran.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A comfortable white light
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I was rising up through a white light, until I met my deceased relatives (mother and grandmother), and I knew that I could have stayed with them. But to do so, I would be dead.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Only positive: Superhuman knowledge, clarity, well-being, curiosity
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others The three persons did not speak, but understood each other, as if pre-decided.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I'm more spiritual; religiosity remained the same.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant mein früherer Glaube ist zue 'Gewissheit' geworden.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience During the experience, it was very clear to me what was actually happening. There was nothing disturbing or improper.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes More serene, less hurried, kinder, helpful, and safer.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Same as with # 38
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes During the NDE, I knew that there was the entry to 'heaven', and that I could have taken this way, too.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Unknown
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Difficulties are actually not so difficult, if in need you can let yourself get help. Challenges can be mastered. If you fail, then it is not so bad. Only those people that do not accept our social securities will experience hardship. The more, all three terms are not 'menacing' anymore, after the NDEs.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes There is an existence after death. I have seen my mother and grandmother, they passed on long ago, and yet they exist.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life I'm more serene, don't care so much about things, old virtues unessential; I'll rather see what the day will bring than plan everything thoroughly. I am not hurried. I hardly get upset, as I know that after death there comes something more and 'there' is genuine kindness; being nice, calm are better virtues than cleanliness.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am kinder, more serene, unhurried, I don't care waiting anymore, less excitement, according to the motto 'act in a way that your acting could be declared as a common law.'
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. The content of the experiences I will never forget, not even part of it, except maybe if I might get a dementia, for what I don't wish.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The certainty that there is something more after death, and that I will see my deceased relatives again.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared my NDE with others. Before, I had no knowledge about them, so my NDE(s) could not have been influenced.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was real, because a dream is different with me, and this clarity and the knowledge during the NDE, and other factors, like the clear alertness cannot be unreal, so they have been real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I have been reading the book of Bernhard Jakoby 'We never die' and the book of Dr. Jeffrey Long 'Evidence of an Afterlife', and slowly the (taboo) topic NDE comes out into the public (TV), AND THAT IS VERY WELL SO!!! As many are not talking about it, because they don't want to be considered as mad.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? People, don't be scared of death!
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Please inform ever and ever again that there is proof, that there is a life after death. You don't have to feel ashamed about an NDE - especially old people should get this information.
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