I had overdosed on a barbiturate. I had three times the lethal limit in my system. I was lying on the floor passed out when my mom just happened to come home early from work that day and found me. When the paramedics arrived, I was not breathing and my heart had stopped.
While they were resuscitating me I recall clear as if it had happened yesterday sitting up out of my body and looking at a man who was sitting on the chair close to where my body was. I recall laughing as if I was incredibly happy to see him and I felt like I had known him my entire life. He was sitting down. He had blondish brown hair and was wearing a white shirt with blue jeans. He had his face covered so I couldn't see it and he was shaking his head from side to side as if he was disappointed in me. The next thing I remember was opening my eyes to see the paramedics, who were both women, and my mom standing over me. I looked to where the man was sitting and there were no men present.
Date NDE Occurred: 'September 14, 2005'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Overdose, suicide attempt.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness When I was looking at him.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was looking at him.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I had absolutely no concept of time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the experience I was not aware of anyone else in the room except this man.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw a man who seemed about my age at the time twenty-five, I didn't know who he was but I felt as though I did. There was no communication except my laughter. He was sitting on a chair before me.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm After this event i started having very weird dreams. And have taken some pictures that might be of interest to this.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, Contentment, Joy.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I have had several dreams dealing with the end of the world. I have felt as though I am being visited in my sleep by spiritual advisors, people who I do not know but feel like I have known them my entire life.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal I didn't really think about such things
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Before I was very uncertain about religion and an afterlife, now I am convinced that there is someone who is watching over us. I now believe in Christ and live my life to serve others.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Before I was very uncertain about religion and an afterlife, now I am convinced that there is someone who is watching over us. I now believe in Christ and live my life to serve others.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have an amazing amount of empathy for others now, I can tell when they are upset and sometimes why even if I hadn't been informed of the cause.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I have taken a series of pictures which include a very clear eye and a red orb that appears somewhere near it, the orb is in the shape of a human but one who would be protected by a brilliant red light.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Later on I read in the Bible about God hiding his face or eyes, it is quoted in several of the scriptures.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I just have a very clear memory of it, the way he looked and how I wasn't in my body at the time.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I am aware that it sounds nuts and it could have been the result of a hallucination I just know it was real and what happened.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No