After an endless period of suffering I lost consciousness, and then something awakened me. The pain and suffocation seemed to have disappeared. 'Someone' was approaching me from behind and I could sense this being on the left side. He or she told me not to be afraid, and explained that they had come to take me away. When I heard this, I felt joy and relief. I do not remember anything else. I woke up to see my mother weeping.
When I saw myself 'here' once more, feeling pain and discomfort, I was in a very bad way emotionally. I have never loved life and I have tried suicide twice. Since then I want to get away from here, it is a constant feeling.
Date NDE Occurred: 1974
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I had both lungs full of fluid, could hardly breathe, and I lost consciousness.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When whoever came to get me 'entered' the room.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When whoever came to get me 'entered' the room.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I do not know how long I was unconscious before I woke up. My mother never wanted to talk about it because she felt guilty for not taking me to the doctor sooner. Sorry.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I don't remember.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I don't know who it was but he or she inspired total confidence in me. I think it was a man, by the tone, but I am not sure.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain I don't remember.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm No lo recuerdo
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Relief, joy.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I do not fear death, but I do not love life.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Ninguno
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes God has nothing to do with religion. We should not ask for anything, He knows everything we need, what is happening with us. We are part of Him.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes God has nothing to do with religion. We should not ask for anything, He knows everything we need, what is happening with us. We are part of Him.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I could be mistaken, but I believe that in my case I am here to undergo a punishment.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I believe in God, I find consolation in the Faith. I think it is not possible to have a good life without believing in something beyond it.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes To translate the message I received into words.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I was brought up in an orphanage run by nuns, where they mistreated me and imposed terrible abuses. I remember beatings, terror and brutality. When they got me out of there, I was eleven years old. I turned my back on religion and stopped believing in God. I believed in nothing at all. After this experience, and thanks to it, I began the slow process of reconciliation.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I knew with a certainty it is hard to explain that after death was something wonderful. I take my life as a prison sentence. I still count the days remaining to me before I regain the true and longed for freedom.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real Through another experience I had at thirty-eight years of age, I have the impression that something wonderful was erased from my memory, which is not fitting for me to remember because I am a suicidal person. I think that I only remember a small part of what happened, for this reason. I was punished, that is my impression.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I have had another experience in an operating theatre when I was twenty years old. I 'escaped' into space, and the matter through which I was moving was something similar to gelatin, but of lighter consistency. When I was resuscitated (in the intensive care unit) I came down out of this medium and entered my battered body through the head. On awaking I had a reaction of anger, pain and revulsion towards my own body.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I don't understand why many people who have had this sensation love life and none of them say they felt bad on returning. I have doubts about my second experience, under anesthesia. Of the first, I am very convinced of its reality.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I think I have said it before, I would like it if you asked people if after the experience they love life. One is not very well off down here.