At the beginning, I was choking. I was in a lot in anguish, because of the lack of oxygen.
The quiet then slowly took over, giving way to a beautiful peace mixed with happiness. I heard the doctors say, 'She has become gray, we are losing her,' but it was as if they were talking about another person.
I wondered why there was so much excitement. I was in that wonderful peace, where I could not even imagine the pain. I felt my consciousness hovering over the doctors' heads, as if I were preparing to leave my body. Then they got the tube in again, and I returned to my normal state. As I returned, I felt all the pain of that body and I regretted the lost peace.
Date NDE Occurred: 2002
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Inserimento di canula in trachea 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
My trachea had collapsed and I was choking. Luckily, I was in the hospital and, after several attempts, they got a tube in, and I was able to breathe.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I had risen to a little above myself and the doctors. And that's when my experience stopped.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no time, there was only happiness and peace.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was brighter.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? As I said, I was quiet, peaceful, serene and happy, as I had never been before.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Cattolico
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate praticante yoga
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I was very peaceful, and it was so beautiful. But these are not the kinds of experiences that are perceptible in ordinary consciousness here on earth. That makes them hard to express in words.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Suffering before death is not so painful. The sense of suffocation did not last long. Before I died, I had always been afraid of suffering at the time of death. Now I have learned that it is a small thing, especially since you forget it immediately, as if it never existed - including psychological problems, old habits - everything of life disappears, giving way to happiness and peace.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I talked about it after a few days. People were interested, but I do not know if they have been influenced in any way.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read something on the Internet and seen television programs about it.
No, I was definitely not affected by the things I had seen about NDEs, because I didn't have the ability to imagine that kind of happiness.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Shortly after it happened (days or weeks) I saw the experience as definitely real. It is real because you cannot even imagine such a feeling of peace and prosperity. I could never create it again with my poor faculties.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still see the experience as definitely, positively real, as I already mentioned. It made me overcome my fear of death, the Last Judgment and suffering before I die.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes By practicing Kryia Yoga, it is possible to reach similar conditions. The ordinary consciousness sometimes tries to merge with the divine consciousness through special meditative techniques.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Some questions are repetitive.