During my out of body experience, I was undergoing a surgery on my tonsils. I heard everything, but; I could not defend myself against someone, I could not move, nor could I make myself understood. I felt panic and fear. Suddenly I saw myself sitting in a big chair, looking down from the ceiling and I heard everything that was said during my surgery. The next day, during hospital rounds, I told people, including my parents, about this event but nobody believed me.
Years after that experience, I asked a technical surgery nurse if this tonsil surgery would be done in a chair. She answered yes. This was like a confirmation for me that my experience from a long time ago was real and not an illusion.
At the birth of my daughter, they had to remove the placenta because it didn't detach by itself. During the anesthesia while under the mask, I had another NDE. First, I saw myself move in a spiral towards a really bright light, and, at the same time, I saw my life running backwards at a fast speed. I also saw, or rather I felt very emotional remembrances and some of the experiences and very emotional reactions of people near to me. Everything happened very fast. When I arrived in this bright light, I was very warmly welcomed by a white light soul. I was aware that I will die. Suddenly, I remembered that I have just given birth to a child, and that I cannot die in that very moment. In the same moment when I was thinking this, or maybe the light soul said this to me, I don't remember exactly which, I was catapulted backwards through the tunnel and in the next moment, I awoke. I remember very clearly, that the midwife looked at me in a very peculiar/dismayed way.
Date NDE Occurred: 1969 und 1988
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related. Childbirth 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' '- Narkose - Entbindung (Hoher Blutverlust)'
High loss of blood.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As a child; when I was on the ceiling. As an adult; at the door sparkling from light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It feels compressed; without time and space.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. When I was floating on the ceiling, I saw everything from a different perspective and very sharp. I saw an angel and he was extraordinary in his form and color.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything I heard was louder.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The being of light I would give the name 'Angel'. This being was very familiar to me. It spoke in a very friendly way and was kind to me.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes As a child; the light above on the ceiling in the surgery-room. As an adult, the bright light at the end of the tunnel.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Die Schwelle zum Jenseits.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? A lot of happy and sad emotions and an emptiness.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control The review was very fast but very emotional for me.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I was aware, from that moment, that there is no reason to fear death.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist katholisch
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I turned away from the roman-catholic church and I believe in reincarnation.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I turned away from the roman-catholic church and I believe in reincarnation.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt that it would not be the moment for my death, because I had given birth in that moment and my daughter and my son would me.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Material things were no longer really desirable. My feelings and affairs of the heart become more important.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes As a child I had an out of body experience and I had watched, from the ceiling, how they do the surgery. The doctors didn't believe me when I talked about what I had seen and heard. During the birth of my daughter, I had another NDE but I didn't talk to anybody for a long time.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Today, many years after the event, I have the gift of clear knowledge, clear feeling and sometime I'm also clairvoyant.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes When I was a child, I told of my experience next day. When I was an adult, it was many months (I don't remember exactly).
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real When I was a child, they told me that what happened wasn't real. As an adult, I didn't know if the experience was a dream or a side effect from the anesthesia.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real In between these experiences I have had several mystic events, so I can distinguish this.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Kethela, Anesthesia
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No