March 10, 2014, I was taken to Good Samaritan Hospital by my husband because I was very sick. I had somehow been exposed to a bacterial pneumonia, which had dumped its toxins into my bloodstream. I was put on life support and had nurses at my bedside constantly, because the alarms kept going off due to my oxygen intake being too low. I don't remember any of this, but what I do vividly remember is being in a very special place. There was no tunnel or bright light; instead, a very creamy white/yellow light, like very early morning, was everywhere. The colors were so vivid and the layers of everything went much deeper than our typical 3D: it was more like 30x30D. It was so beautiful and calming that I knew I wanted to be here forever. There were people and animals as far as I could see. I could only see the head and shoulders of the people, but there were thousands and thousands of them and I realized I knew every one of them. On my right, with peripheral vision, I saw my younger brother who had passed in 2001. Behind me, also to my right, was my husband's father, who had also passed in November 1998. He touched my shoulders, turned me around, and said, ‘Clay deserves to be happy; you both deserve to be happy. So you have to go back now.’ Then he turned me around and gave me a gentle push. I remember the love and compassion. The first thing I remember was the respiratory nurse telling me to cough so he could remove the tube in my throat. I am still dazzled by what I had experienced. While I am not ready to die, I no longer fear the ending, because I know.
Date NDE Occurred: March 16, 2014
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Illness. Life threatening event, but not clinical death.
I was on life support due to bacterial pneumonia dumping toxins into my bloodstream.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Everything was so beautiful: the colors were so much more, the people and animals; my awareness of knowing every person and animal and that we ARE all one.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The entire visit was so vivid and I still can see it in my memory.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Typical vision 3D
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I wasn't aware of hearing anything until my father-in-law spoke.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Family members, pets that had passed
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It’s hard to describe: people and animals in a beautiful place, creamy white/yellow light everywhere.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, love, compassion
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience My belief is knowing family will be there to greet me. I did not truly mentally grasp that we are all one
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain If it was Jesus, he took the form of my father-in-law
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes We are all connected spiritually with one another, including animals
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes People & animals were alive, everyone was spiritually connected
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I SAW love, very hard to describe, more than an emotion
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. I experience a deeper meaning of life/love that I didn't before this experience.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I so much more value my loved ones, and tell them I love them. I realized I had been given a beautiful experience and that each person who has entered my life has blessed ME. I want them to know how much I love them. It is the same with friends.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared with family, March 17th, and not really aware if they believed me or not. It was a beautiful experience and I wanted to share it with them.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It is most noticeable when I lose myself in colors, especially in my flower garden. The layers of colors become more and more beautiful, and I can watch for hours.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It is real. I don't know how to express, other than to tell you to just wait until you go there.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Colors are so much more vivid.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It has given me the opportunity to appreciate life, all life.
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