Hours after giving birth to my first child, Adrijana, I began to experience excruciating pain in my womb. I was asked to shut up as it was disturbing other mothers. A few hours later I began to leave my bed towards the ceiling and intuitively I knew that I was leaving my body to die. As I reached the ceiling looking down on myself I thought of my new baby and what would happen to her if I died, so I stretched my arms and pushed against the ceiling and returned back to my bed to find out that I was being transferred to a trolley to the operating theatre. I was never told why they had to operate on me. I have always known that I prevented my own death.
Date NDE Occurred: 9/9/1969
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Life threatening event, but not clinical death Hours after giving birth to my first child Adrijana I began to experience excrusiating pain in my woumb. I was asked to shut up as it was disturbing other mothers. A few hours later I began to leave my bed towards the ceiling and intuitively I knew that I was dying. Complication after childbirth.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I seemed to be aware of a knowledge that was not usually available to me.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I reached the ceiling.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Timelessness and of not of here and now.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? My vision had become overwhelmingly photographic recording every angle and every object in the room not necessary for my needs. I was noting a list of absolutely everything in the room to take with me to the next world. Apart from grey there was no other color in the room and the strangest thing was that the entire room was transparent enabling me to see through objects.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I could hear no sounds at all. The world had shut itself from me.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Extremely frightened and alarmed.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future But I knew quite clearly about the future of new born baby if I went through the ceiling.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I knew the ceiling was my boundary and if I did pass through it there would be no point of return.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal none
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal none
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I knew I was going to die.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Some years later I saw in an evening newspaper the assassination of an Irish politician called Kennedy (not the president of the USA) and commented to my then husband if he had been related to the deceased president. My husband was baffled by this comment and said that there had been no assassination of anyone called Kennedy. The following day the headline news reported the assassination of Senator Kennedy in Ireland.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The bleak future of my child after my death.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. The clarity in which it happened.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Because it was.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No