Experience Description

I was hemorrhaging blood. (I thought it was ketchup but I knew I couldn't have eaten that much ketchup!) I told my parents and they looked at me with something in their eyes (fear). I ran back to the bathroom and I heard my mother scream in terror and cries and moaning. I was tired and laid down to rest on the floor - my back to the floor and I looked up and saw myself on the ceiling. I wasn't scared at all. I felt someone holding me so tight yet so gently and could feel wind and bright light and words exchanged. I couldn't hear the words but suddenly I felt myself thrust back into my body. I felt then that life is precious and it is much easier to 'die' than to be born. I was told later that I was on 'the critical list for six days'.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1962

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Approx. 1 wk. after tonsillectomy/adenoidectomy while recuperating at home my experience began. Life threatening event, but not clinical death I was hemorrhaging blood through my nose and mouth. I lost a lot blood I was told.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal All of the time.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All of the time.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Altered space.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything seemed brighter.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear background noise but not the voices of the 'angel' holding me and the 'voice' the 'angel' was 'speaking' to.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain There was brightness all around. I did feel as if I was being rushed through wind.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I felt like I was being held so tightly yet gently by something bigger than me. I felt the presence of another. I felt myself being thrust down into my body. Death isn't scary. Being born is more difficult than dying.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Brightness all around. I could not make out objects, just brightness.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I felt I was being carried upwards, much wind and brightness all around.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Unconditional love - a feeling of warmth, compassion, a feeling like I mattered very much. A kind of happiness. No fear, no sadness, no pain, no sorrow.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control This should be a separate question. As it is combined, I cannot answer but my answer is given above.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Roman Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain Not really. I enjoy going to church but I don't go that often. I think the Byzantine Church is better for me than the Roman Catholic.

What is your religion now? Liberal Leaning toward Byzantine Catholic

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain Not really. I enjoy going to church but I don't go that often. I think the Byzantine Church is better for me than the Roman Catholic.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I awoke thinking life is precious and it is easier to die than to be born.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Probably. I have few friends but they are very close.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The feeling I felt at the time. Like I was being held so tightly by something so loving as if I was something so precious - it was not a parent, I was alone at the time.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Sometimes I think I have a keen sense on how people are really feeling - but I find it difficult to confront them - I just may be overly sensitive.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it. I just did in all the above questions.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My family members were surprised. They seem to accept it. They let me talk when I felt like it without criticism.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I feel moments of real unconditional love from my dog. Don't laugh! And my husband loves me too.