I had an allergic reaction to medications in the hospital. Total cardiac arrest and flat-lined. The sound I heard upon dying was exactly like the sound check that they used to give in the movie theaters when it says, 'The audience is listening.' I was suddenly aware of being outside of my body and heard my sister crying and fighting to stay next to me. I was suddenly in some kind of very long hallway. I felt a being on each side of me and was pulled really fast through the hallway. I felt scared and for some reason pictures of my mom, crying at my funeral flashed in front of me. The beings (I guess angels) made me calmer and I all of a sudden knew that I was going to see my grandpa wherever I was headed.
I came to a halt and it was in some kind of 'Limbo' where my sins where dealt with. I felt sensations of sadness and witnessed my first sin being committed. I was aware of almost some kind of judge being present but not visible. I felt scared and was pleading to help me. Again, the two angels were next to me and I was lifted up to a mountain-like top with them. I was told to look down and witnessed heaven and hell. Yes, I know it sounds insane to someone who maybe has not been there.
I found my faith very fast right there on the mountain and realized that very moment when God had tried to speak to me but I was too busy with material things. It felt like someone had cleansed me off completely. I felt like an almost magnetic pull with the angels and wanted to move forward but the angels told me I had to go back again. I had to tell what I had seen. I just wanted to see my grandpa and felt like fighting going back. It was as if I was dropped and I fell and crashed back into my body.
What amazed me was the amount of time, I had only been gone less than a couple of minutes, but it seems that it felt like hours. I used to be a totally different person before my experience. Maybe part of my personality had to do with being young and naive about life. Not caring for others. I will never forget that there is definitely a place called hell. I can witness to this.
Date NDE Occurred: Oct 1987
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Allergic reaction Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I guess the best feeling is exactly like being truly awake for the first time in my life. It was like my life was a dream in a fog at that point.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? On the mountain top looking down on heaven and hell. It was a feeling of being truly awake for the first time ever.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was no time anymore. If I only could describe to you what that feeling is.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? In the beginning of the experience in the hallway it was quite foggy still things were unclear and mumbled like. It is strange but during the whole experience I had a feeling of being transparent, the beings (angels) were also not like people with faces they were more like a presence, they had bodies but not features if that makes sense.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The long hallway.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The two angels (all them that, I did not see any wings or halos though) and the judgment being.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I do not know if you can call it a light, more something white and bright. When I think light I imagine the sun and it was not like that or a lamp light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm My mountain top ( it was like a mountain top, the best way I can describe this)
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Scared (at one point the height of all fears) sadness, then relief, a feeling of forgiveness, an almost childlike innocence after being cleansed and a feeling of being fragile, vulnerable. Comforted and of course wanting to get somewhere.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control It was things I had not remembered ever without the experience. Things I thought mattered did not and vice versa. I felt like I was given complete knowledge of everything and everyone.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future It was so scary. I would tell people to look up to the sky, in a few seconds you will see a shooting star, and it happened several times. So very many things happened, including knowing people's names and where they came from.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal None
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Completely from non-believer to believer.
What is your religion now? Moderate Christian.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Completely from non-believer to believer.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Absolutely, universal order, the understanding of everything.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I give and give and give. My priorities are so changed and therefore my relationships have all changed. I am very forgiving (I'd like to think) I constantly think of the consequences of things I do.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The incredible emotions, realization astonishment. It is like everything you ever did right or wrong EVER is brought together and presented to you. I felt like I was given the answer to the mystery of life. (If I could only remember what that was.) For the first time in my life that I could truly understand why it does not matter how rich or how poor you are. Or how powerful or powerless you were on earth. I was just a bare soul (I guess I can say that) and was somehow told to bring a message back with me.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Immediately after the experience I did something called automatic writing. I wrote a whole page in perfect Latin and I do not know Latin. We brought this to a priest and he confirmed that it was things from the Bible (various parts). At this time, I only remember the last word being 'Omega'. People would speak other languages and I would understand everything. People were actually scared of me.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The experience as a whole whether frightening or not, it was something I had to understand. I feel so sad for people that do not get a second chance like I did.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Very few family members. My mom is now religious. My sister is now religious. I am NOW of course a true believer of God.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No I had absolutely no experience or any knowledge of anything called near death experience. I was very naive.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. There is no question for me at all, it was all real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It was certain things that were brought up to me during my judgment that I myself would never have known or figured out was such and bad choices that I had made. I understood that even when you say something vicious to someone it could be more of a sin that stealing an apple if you are hungry. In effect, this kind of thing I could never have thought of. The total change of my personality. I am a proof to myself every day of the reality of this experience.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No Only sitting in the movie theater hearing 'The audience is listening' sound.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? WOW! I have cramps in my hands from writing.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I had a watch on my hand all the time prior to my NDE and since then it seems that watches on my hand malfunction. I read that this is quite common for people with NDE. Maybe add that question. It would be interesting to understand why that is.