I was taken into the hospital room and laid on a table. My limbs were separately going numb. I was trying to say my children's names. I wanted desperately to see my three children. My speech had slowed until I could hardly say their names. My conscious state of mind was leaving me. I was left on a table and everyone left the room.
I awoke and I was looking down over my body. I remember thinking, 'I don't see a white light like I had heard that people saw.' I was at peace. It was as though I was in the clouds and floating away. The higher I got I felt the same peaceful feeling. Then I looked back at my body and was desperately trying to make one limb move, my hand first. I could move my fingers and then I was trying to make my feet and legs move back and forth. Slowly my body started to respond. Then it was as if I lost all consciousness and I don't remember anymore until I awoke. The nurse was standing over me. She said, 'It's alright. You're in the hospital. You had gone into cardiac arrest.' I could not breathe through my nose. There were monitors all around me. The doctor came in and asked, 'Why did you try to kill yourself? You had over the times the level of aspirin in your system that it takes to kill yourself.'
Date NDE Occurred: 'March 2008'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes had overdosed on aspirin 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' I was in cardiac and respiratory failure
I had a restraining order out on my husband for threatening to harm me. I was in a state on extreme fear and had been for several months. I had to go to another state to get farther away from him.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was totally conscious when I was looking over my body. I knew myself; I knew the feeling of peace was real.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I felt as though I was going further up from my body.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was no sound. I was as alone and peaceful.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm it was like i was in the sky to me. clear,not sunny or cloudly. just peaceful
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Complete peace. Not conscious of any evil.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I was taught to fear God. I do not fear him now. Nor do I fear another person. I found the one who could take life or give it and I was not afraid of Him.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Baptist belief
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I know longer go to the churches that preach fear of God. I talk with God by myself. I talk to Him and tell him how I feel and I tell Him how much I love Him. He is with me constantly.
I associate with positive people.
What is your religion now? Moderate relationship with God as my friend
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I know longer go to the churches that preach fear of God. I talk with God by myself. I talk to Him and tell him how I feel and I tell Him how much I love Him. He is with me constantly.
I associate with positive people.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I no longer allow previous partners or family members to control me or my actions. If a person seems to be bad for a relationship, I discontinue it. I focus on my children and my grandchildren and not on my problems. I am not ever depressed to the state of wanting to die.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I was looking down on myself. my body was becoming totally numb, one limb at a time. I was not afraid in this experience. I was in a peaceful space. It was a good feeling but I remember I didn't want to be there. I had to try to make my limbs move so I could try to make my body come back to me.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Years ago I have had only few of these but I dreamed things happened that later took place.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I saw no light but somehow I have realized I don't have to fear death or God.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About three weeks later I related the experience to a friend. She said if I did not remember having a tube in my throat it was probably all in my mind.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I felt very close to God. I have changed in my thoughts and feelings about my life. My life is happier for the experience. I tell my children how much they mean to me.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I had poisoned my body and was taking my life not on purpose, but I know I want to live as long as possible to enjoy every minute of my life.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I have stopped taking nerve pills and pain pills and anything that alters the mind.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I would really like to know if this was a near death experience or something in my mind.