My husband and I were visiting an ailing cousin in southern Maryland. All day, I felt stressed and began to have a headache. After we left my cousin's house to go to our hotel, we went to dinner and then I wanted to go to bed right away because I was so tired. In the morning, about 7:00 a.m., I awoke suddenly feeling very calm and with the feeling that I had just visited a very spiritual place. I had gone through a tunnel but the light at the end was not all that bright. I saw a lot of figures standing at the end of the tunnel. They seemed to be sepia- colored. They almost had the appearance of Monks. I felt great happiness and comfort and utter, complete love. I remember being so happy there and I did not want to leave. The most profound feeling of gentle beauty and love surrounded me but something was telling me it wasn't time for me to be there. That is when I woke up, much to my disappointment.
Date NDE Occurred: 'July, 1997'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Heart attack. 'Extreme stress, headache, shortness of breath' 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening' 'Extreme stress, headache, shortness of breath'
I was told a week after the NDE that I had had a myocardial infarction. I had been under a lot of stress from visiting an antagonistic relative and wasn't feeling well before I went to sleep the night of the event. Because it was verified as a heart attack, I presume it was a life threatening event.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Right before coming back, before waking up: I felt totally aware of a world full of love and happiness.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was misty; I could not make out the faces of the forms surrounding me. Unlike some people who have gone through this, I did not recognize any loved ones: only that there were 'spirits' or beings around me in this sepia-color.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember hearing as such; everything was more emotional, as if communicated non-verbally.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place Swirling colors, darkness mixed with light, dark tunnel with light at end.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt love, happiness, fulfillment, and enormous contentment.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Other faiths- New age
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin Beings around me had human shape but no identifiable features.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain Only insomuch that I felt one with the universe I was in at the time and it was a beautiful place to be. I know I did not want to return to my previous existence.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably existsÂ
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I am no longer afraid of death and feel certain I will meet up with my loved ones after I die.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is everywhere..we are love, we are made from love. When we die, love will be what waits for us.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. No fear of dying or the afterlife.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Uncertain I still seem to make the same mistakes with my life and relationships. Perhaps that is why I was sent back, because I have a lot more to learn in these areas.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I feel as if this happened just yesterday.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of life is created from love. God is not a punisher and we are here to learn lessons. Evil will not be punished by God but lessons will be taught.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Just what I read and heard about.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I had no doubts as to the reality of my experience. I knew it to be true.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I am not sure what you mean with this question, sorry.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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