At first, it seemed like I had risen upward from myself lying on the floor of my bathroom and moving across this beautiful valley filled with green grass and flowers all over. It was as if I was flying. Maybe like superman did. I felt like something was behind me. I was not sure if what was behind me was good or bad. I know I was very much at ease. Towards the end of it all, I felt like there was something following me and it made me feel like I was being led to some other place or direction. Then, I was all of a sudden being pulled backwards at an amazingly fast pace. The field I was flying over was just a green blur. Then there was a really bright flash of light and then I was being shook. I was back in my house on the floor of my dining room with paramedics everywhere and my wife on the couch with her head on her knees crying. She looked up and then ran over to me.
Date NDE Occurred: Last one 8/21/1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No accidental overdose Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I don't think I can. But I guess it was because everything there was so vivid and clean. I could see the flowers and the little butterflies on them.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Probably when I was over the field.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Definitely guess it's because nothing else is in your head except for what you are experiencing.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain Like I said earlier, I did feel like I was being driven towards somewhere I cannot explain. But that was at the end of it all.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain I suppose right at the very end before I was back, there did seem to be a flash of something, like a flash moving backwards.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm A beautiful pasture or field of green grass and flowers everywhere.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? At ease. I felt like I was just not in any hurry to do anything. I was not asked for anything and I was alone except for what was making me feel differently towards the end of my experience.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal I really don't consider myself as any type of religious person.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believe more than ever that my Lord has something special waiting for me when I go home to him.
What is your religion now? Liberal Now I do go to church on certain times of trial and tribulation. I suppose I am a Christian.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe more than ever that my Lord has something special waiting for me when I go home to him.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Probably because what had been happening was so very intense.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Not really. I just felt like there was nothing I had to do and nowhere I had to go. I just felt like I was happy and at ease.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. This wasn't the first time I had one. I have been pronounced clinically dead five times now. So I just knew this had to be real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I can say with all honesty that I now know that God as we each see him has a definite purpose for me.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain I have not used drugs since my overdose.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I am now in the worse health of my life. I have been battling this lung disease for some time now. I am currently at the end stage of my illness and have only fourteen percent of my total lung capacity. So I probably don't have a lot of time left in me. At least I know that when my time does come, I have nothing to fear. That Wendy will be taken care of and I will be with all of my family one day.