Admitted to the emergency room with chest pain. Treated with clot busting medicine for blockage in vessel feeding the bottom of my heart determined by electrocardiograph. After ninety minutes, I said to the doctor, 'Boy, do I feel dizzy!' I immediately blacked out, and I felt like I sank through the bottom of the stretcher into water. I had the feeling I was flailing my arms to swim back to the surface. I was panicking, fighting for my life (while arguing with myself to let go).
Suddenly I am standing twenty feet away from the stretcher watching the doctor perform CPR on my body. During his time, I was very calm, and noticed I was only a consciousness, no body, no pain, no problems, no worries. It was great! As I watched the doctor perform compressions on my chest I thought, I don't feel anything, this guy can't control whether I live or die. I thought only I can control whether live or die. As soon as I had this thought I was back in my body, and awake.
Date NDE Occurred: 9/10/2003
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Life threatening event, but not clinical death Heart attack.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was just a seeing consciousness. No form.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I felt as though I was fully conscious, and alert.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I do not remember hearing anything.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe When you die it stops hurting, and feels wonderful like the weight of the world has been taken off your shoulders.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will When I had the thought only I can control whether I live or die I returned to my body.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Raised Catholic non practicing at this time
What is your religion now? Moderate Same
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Not afraid to die. Look forward to it. Disappointed I screwed it up by my thought.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feelings of peace while out of body was the best.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Disappointed with my new found desire to die.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No