On Saturday April 4, 2004, I had a major heart attack. The main part hit while at the hospital with a full staff at my side. One second I was talking and in mid-sentence, I was gone. When the heart attack took me out, they had the bed in the sitting up position. (You know, with the head of the bed raised.) A nurse was about to start an IV when I went out.
The next thing I knew was that I was standing at the head of the bed, looking at the staff and myself. The doctor told a nurse to give him something, they turned around to a cabinet and when they turned back around, they were handing him a really big needle. (I remember thinking to myself, 'I know what that is for and it's going to hurt like hell.') As the doctor reached for it, everything went black.
The next thing I knew, I was standing in what I call a black room. But it was not a room, as we know it - more like an abyss, if you will. I had the feeling that there was something behind me, and there was something in front of me like a black veil, keeping me from seeing what was on the other side of it. I was transfixed on the blackness. It was not frightening at all. I felt the greatest sense of peace I have ever felt in my life. I stood staring at the black abyss. As I said earlier, I felt that there was something behind me, and was tempted to turn around to look. But it was as if I had been told not to so, I didn't. After what seemed to be a couple of minutes, I was returned to my body. When I was returned, it felt like I was coming from the back of my head forward. As I reached where I was supposed to be, I could see, and hear everything clearly.
The doctor, had just told the person standing behind him to 'give him four hundred.' I saw the two paddles in his hands and knew what they were and what he was going to do with them. And once again, I thought to myself, 'This is going to hurt.' Using everything I had, I raised my hand to stop him. The doctor looked at me, then looked at the monitor, then back at me, and back to the monitor again, and said, 'Look at that! I don't believe it.' I was still flat-lined and was stopping him. That is when he told me that they had lost me. They got me stable the best they could and transferred me to another hospital, where they put two stints in my left right ventricle.
Date NDE Occurred: April 4, 2004
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Other 'not sure, all they said was they lost me, and had to do CPR and zapped me 4 times. they were about to zap me the 5th time at 400volts. Heart attack.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? If I understand this part right.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Not sure what you mean by: Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I felt that there was something there but could not see it.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? There was no ringing in my ears.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Not sure, I know something was there but could not see it.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Total peace, relaxed and tranquil feeling.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes There was a boundary of a black veil. But it was like I was told not to go there yet. And to stand right where I was and do not move. ( Note: I recall no voices, nor did I see anything. I was just a feeling.)
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate 'I have always believed in God, but do not attended church.'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No Other than there is a life after this one has been strengthened.
What is your religion now? Moderate 'I have always believed in God, but do not attended church.'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No Other than there is a life after this one has been strengthened.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? There is something or someplace we go after this life, and death should not be feared.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I did share within minutes. I told my wife and family, I hate to tell you, but there is no light on the other side. And told them about what I seen and felt. I don't think it has really changed anyone other than letting them know there is something there.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Mainly what you see on TV but in all the cases I heard of there was a tunnel or light, and sometimes spirits there to meet them. But this was not my experience.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. There is something or someplace we go after this life, and death should not be feared.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. There is something or someplace we go after this life, and death should not be feared.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No