On 28th April, 1984, which was a Sunday, I awoke early, feeling very relaxed. When I was awake, I began to feel like having sex, so I started to touch my wife, with this in mind. In the middle of it, I felt a strong pain in my left arm, with reactions towards the throat, and in seconds I felt that my lungs were out of oxygen, my strength left me, and I told my partner that this was a possible heart-attack. Within half an hour, I was in the care of doctors, and while in the emergency room, I lost consciousness. What I then saw and what others there saw are completely disconnected events.
I ascended through a tunnel at the end of which there was a lot of white light. When I got to the end, my deceased father-in-law was waiting for me there, to my surprise. I asked him what I was doing there with him, and he told me not to be afraid, that I had simply died. I answered this by saying it was not possible, since my children needed me, being still very small, so I refused to stay in that place. Other deceased persons came near, trying to keep me there by force, and I was fighting them all, except my wife's father, handing out punches and kicks all round.
The real situation, which I was told about, and of which I was completely unaware, was that apparently I did suffer a loss of consciousness, and, according to the doctors, a cardiac arrest. They explained that when I lost consciousness, I leaped from the gurney, left the room at a run and went to hide in a corner, where doctors and nurses tried to pacify me. I was punching and kicking in self-defense, and my wife told me she heard me shouting in a really terrified way, so that as soon as she could break free from the people restraining her she ran to my side and spoke in my ear asking what was happening to me. Then I opened my eyes, and seeing her there, I told her I had been to the other side. She asked where, and I answered, with her father, who had died four years previously.
They calmed me down and put me in the intensive care unit. Until now, what I learned from this experience is that from then on I have never feared my last day, since this can come at any time, but I am sure that when it does come, instead of struggling against it, I will go happily into death's embrace.
Date NDE Occurred: 29 April 1984
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Heart attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Parada cardiorespiratoria
How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal At no time.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At no time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I have never worked out how long the situation lasted.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. A very white light of great purity.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Until a familiar voice said I few words to me, I was unable to extricate myself from the situation.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A tunnel with a light at the end.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes They were waiting for me at the end of the tunnel. One of them was my late father-in-law, dead four years previously.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A very clear, white light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear, sadness and incomprehension.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I learned that the fact of dying is part of life, and I stopped having that awful fear of it that I had before the experience.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain I feel that I crossed the frontier between life and death, and there were physically present people who were already dead.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No Not at all.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Okay, I think I would be repeating myself, see above, but I have always sought answers which are more scientific than religious.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They told me that God had given me another chance, that, according to their beliefs, their God needed me here for other more important things. I have to say that I consider myself an atheist.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I believe that when my heart failed, the blood supply to my brain was reduced, and that this story formed itself by a chemical process.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was one more experience in the passage through this world, but it has left me without fear.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? The truth is that I would like to have an answer, but I know that this is wanting to know from whence we came, and where we are heading.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I think the questionnaire is quite comprehensive.