I had arrived at the heart clinic for my appointment to have my implanted CRT-D device evaluated. The electrocardiogram leads were attached and the wand was placed over my CRT-D device for the test. The nurse practitioner was new and during the evaluation, she apparently did not realize that since my most recent A-V ablation surgery that my heart is a hundred percent dependent upon my device to keep beating. I guess a common test for patients that are not totally dependent upon the device is to turn off the pacing to monitor how the heart functions without assistance. Well at the instant she turned off my device my heart stopped beating.
At that same instant I went into a dark place, I had a feeling of complete peace and contentment and a kind of mild euphoria. Just as I began to feel that, something else was beginning to occur. I was brought back, as the nurse had realized her mistake and turned my pacing device back on. When I first came back, the first thing I saw was my regular nurse standing there asking me repeatedly, 'Are you okay?'
The nurse was obviously very scared and was shaking because of what she had done. My regular nurse was there with her and then the representative from the company came running in as well. They were all very concerned that I was okay.
Looking back, I almost feel cheated that I wasn't able to go further into cardiac arrest to experience my own near death experience more completely before being brought back!
Date NDE Occurred: 'May 28, 2010'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes During ICD test my pacemaker was mistakenly turned off and my heart stopped beating Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal I wasn't dead long enough to answer this question.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I wasn't dead long enough to answer this question.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I ran out of time to accurately say.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I ran out of time to accurately say.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I ran out of time to accurately say.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain I experienced instant complete darkness. I felt contentment, peace, a kind of mild euphoria, I seemed to feel that something else was changing but I was brought back to the present too soon to really know.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling of complete peace and contentment was fantastic and wonderful while it lasted.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I can't get through a day without wishing that I could have had more time in cardiac arrest to go further into my NDE!
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real The experience was definitely real and I want to go back and be able to go much further into my own NDE!
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I want to go back to experience more!
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Your questionnaire is very well thought out and asks all the right questions.