Impression came to me very quickly in a space with colorful prisms that paraded around me. When I arrived in this space of soft and brilliant light, there was an amazing ambiance of love. I felt like I was in communication with a charismatic entity. I was surprised because the being communicated in an unknown language that I understood. I had a life review where I saw the good and the bad events of my life. I was judged on this balance: The judgment was favorable.
I had a feeling of extreme lucidity, omniscience and super conscience and I had the impression I could speak all languages. I 'saw' my two children (currently living) being held by the hand, they were rays of light, dressed in white.
I was flooded with information. I knew I needed to come back to my children. Some messages printed themselves in my mind and one only remained in my memory: 'it is necessary to fully use one’s capacities on Earth, not to waste his/her/its talents, but to share them with other’s.'
I made huge efforts to come back to life. When I came back to the world, I was agitated with what I was around me. I could not speak, nor open my eyes, yet I felt all emotions and the thoughts of all around me. The first scene I saw was one of a tree against a gray sky with Paris off in the distance. I regretted my return. A depression followed, in spite of happiness at recovering. My family didn't want to listen to my deliriums.
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I have a comment to make about Pinchon's NDE. Since it is translated from the French, I was not sure if you understood the reference to 'Jean-Michel Jarre.' Jean Michel Jarre is a new-age type musician. I have not heard many of his albums, but I have one of his earlier ones, 'Oxygene'. Some of the music on it sounds like some of the other music I have heard that was created by near-death experiencers who were trying to communicate what the music they heard was like.
Date NDE Occurred: January 1989
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death hémorragie interneHemorrhage during a hysterectomy.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain No information, no memory of it.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Omniscience, hyper-conscience and very extreme lucidity compared to the 'wakening' time.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning The chronology and the sense of time seemed fuzzy to me.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Music marks, Jean-Michel Jarre.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Not a tunnel, but a space with scrollings of color prisms.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My two children who are living, but a lot younger than they were actually.
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Very luminous space without being glaring and in which one feels penetrated by love.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Immense love, extreme lucidity and omniscience, judgment and understanding, 'paternal' advice.
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Omniscience: impression of all knowledge in an innate way and what surprised me that is to the level of the languages (I am not very good in languages) I also had a sense of the universal and my role.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I had to 'to tell' my life, but I don't remember what I said and this in a strange language. I know I have been judged and have been forgiven. I had several messages 'to bring back' one only remains with me in memory. One must maximize his/her/its talents. I’m sorry I can’t remember the other one.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I decided to come back, but it was very hard.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain This experience that I assign to biologic and neuronal phenomena allowed me to wonder if religious roots were able to build itself/themselves on old testimonies of NDEs when such experiences were new and where the sense of the magnificent was real and at the origin of myths and beliefs. I believe that she/it allowed me to touch a little better the 'god' who is biologically in me and to think about how to develop this parcel of me.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Difficult to translate into words.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I note a strong capacity to feel others. I feel nature sometimes; I developed this feeling in painting.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best: to live it. It also allowed me accept with serenity my father's death the following year. The worse: the efforts to come back and the spiritual censorship.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Disappointing reactions (curiosity or indifference) sometimes mockeries, only the priests or people touched by one death had reactions of certain monitoring.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No