Aware of fighting an out of body experience. Was reasonably conscious during the first part of procedure because my cardiologist refrained from administering the standard cocktail. As he said, 'your Padre' is coming and you want to be conscious for him, but I can't wait to begin. I had asked for a Catholic Priest, and one was on the way.
The priest came, administered the Sacrament of the Sick, and stood by my right side for some time. I watched the procedure on the monitor to some degree and then experienced a major indifference to everything that was going on. I felt as if I wanted to get up and started to 'get up off the table.' I recall saying to myself that this is odd. After all, I had three caths in my legs, one on the left thigh and two on the right with three doctors busy and talking among themselves. The three were my friend, the cardiologist, my friend and personal physician, and a long-time acquaintance who is a noted thorasic cardiovascular surgeon. All three were present at this 3:00 AM procedure.
My cardiologist indicated to those assisting him that the blockage was complete in the LAD, that my heart rate was falling seriously low and that if he couldn't clear the blockage somehow. That's all I heard or cared to hear because my attention was focused on closing my eyes. I knew something else much more fascinating and important was about to be experienced. I convinced myself to remain on the table, closed my eyes and experienced a rushing sensation, as if on a roller coaster ride in a dark tunnel. I felt wind rushing by my ears along with the sensation of rapid movement.
Then the movement stopped. I am unable to describe it completely. There was clear, omni-directional light, which reflected no shadows. The white light was everywhere. It appeared like it was muted through gauze, but yet still all encompassing.
I saw no beings, nothing other than the all-pervasive light. I did feel and know intuitively that I was safe, happy, and loved. I was LOVED in a way I'm unable to put into words yet. I was also aware of being allowed to comprehend that it was important for me to 'go back.'
That's all. I awoke six hours later in the Intensive Cardiac Care unit of the hospital in Houston. My memory of what I've just explained was somewhat dim, but I had an overpowering desire, urge to write a book about a certain subject related to values, morals, and a certain Christian experience.
Date NDE Occurred: 29 January 2006
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) . Third heart attack in two years. Second was in September 2005. The third was January 2006. The third was particularly serious and the Angio cauth procedure was hindered by 100% blockage. Normal De Fibrillation procedure was not capable of success because the issue was 'plumbing' and not 'electrical.'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness I have never been completely disinterested in what is going on around me. I was a serious student, focused commissioned officer leading troops in combat, and a Type 'A' executive. Always focused with a need to be completely and intensely involved. Here was a 'big time' experience in the operating room, an experience that I knew was life threatening, and soon was leading to my immediate death, and I really didn't care. Rather I 'went along for the ride.'
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The conscious decision not to really be concerned with what was going on in the operating room and to close my eyes, let go.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Some sort of movement BACK in time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Depth perception; awareness of movement, not an unpleasant experience.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Because of loud noises while leading troops in combat, my haring is quite diminished. However, hearing was not really the issue. What I sensations I experienced was not really through the bodily senses. Rather, all was an internally generated awareness, certainty, knowledge, etc.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Relief, neutral happiness, curiosity, satisfaction
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Do have an awareness that heaven and hell are best defined exactly the same way: As experiencing the consequences of our behavior for all eternity.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate RC
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain Strong Catholic faith all along.
What is your religion now? Moderate RC
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain Strong Catholic faith all along.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I'm sorting this out.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Urge to explore archeology and history of a specific time in the past and develop a manuscript including insights I am developing from my subconscious.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Unclear at first. I awoke in intensive care ,after a seven hour cardiac event procedure, with a strong desire to write a book about a particular value-laden moral topic.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Difficult, still sorting it out.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No Two Months, A Rev. in Houston
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I just know. My medical situation was verified as nearly as possible and informally by my cardiologist that 'it was a real serious cardiac event, we lost you for a while' and, my wife filling in the details about just how long I was in the OR, six hours.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I just know. My medical situation was verified as nearly as possible and informally by my cardiologist that 'it was a real serious cardiac event, we lost you for a while' and, my wife filling in the details about just how long I was in the OR, for six hours.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? not now
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? This is a sorting out time for me.