I was with my friends from taekwondo at the pool. We did a choreography for a video and dived into the water. I knew how to swim under the water, but not on the surface. After we were all in the pool, I tried to get out but couldn't. And after a few seconds, I started to drown. Nobody helped me because they thought it was a joke, even the lifeguards. I fought to get out but I only got in more trouble. I swallowed water and fainted. I remember thinking, 'That is all, that is all' and accepting that I was going to die in that moment. There were no flashbacks, no pictures of my life, nothing.Then, I was standing on a wheat field. It was daytime, cloudy, and the wind was blowing strong. There were no sounds. I felt the wheat moving and touching my body. I felt the wind in my body. I heard no sounds. I was not feeling anything else but I was standing in total and absolute peace. I was watching the field, looking at the sky, and seeing wheat moving. I was not waiting for anything, just observing the landscape. I didn't walk forward or back.After that I woke up in a terrible way. It was like being in a twister, everything was turning so fast that I couldn't notice if there were faces, trees, or whatever may be. For me it was total chaos to come back. I tried to punch the lifeguards who saved my life. I didn't know who I was, where I was, or even what I was. After a minute of trying to fight, I could perceive a known face who was the face of a friend. Then I remembered who I was. After seeing the pool, I remembered everything. It was frustrating to realize that I had come back.
Date NDE Occurred: 01-18-2009
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Suicide attempt. Drowning. Other: I did not breath for minutes after drowning, but I was not 'clinically' declared as dead
I did not breathe for minutes after drowning, but I was not 'clinically' declared as dead.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness It was normal.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Standing in the wheat field.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I didn't feel like there was time in my experience.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was the same to me.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the experience, I didn't hear anything.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place Wheat field, cloudy day, no sounds, just wind
What emotions did you feel during the experience? PEACE
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant The last time I went to church was when I was 13 years old
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? No comment I still don't go to church
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I didn't expect to feel peace. At that time, I thought there was nothing after passing away.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I'm more curious to spiritual things, meditation, akashic registers, esoterica, astrology, and other stuff that may tell past life or early life events.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I felt that oneness. I felt the peace.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes He is everything, we are part of him and he is in us. God definitely exists.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No At the end, there is no suffering, it is a peaceful existence, a peaceful everything.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are not our bodies or our feelings. We are everything and in that everything there is only peace.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life I want to go back there. I often remember it and wish I could be there soon. I have suicidal thoughts but they are not extremely strong. I constantly feel that I don't belong here, but it is not my call to decide it.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes More dreams, mainly about what is happening to me at unconscious level, hard to interpret but very, very helpful. I also have foreseen events, i.e. my daughter falling from the bed or burning her hand with the stove. Once I could save her and the other I was a bit late. I have foreseen things in sports. But that foreseeing is no more than 5 or 10 seconds in advance. I also feel entities enter my body and not acting as normal after that.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Feeling the peace, it was wonderful to feel nothing and everything at the same time.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They get surprised and curious, because it is not the usual experience they hear or watch in the movies.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Only the movies like Ghost, and stories of the tunnel and light and dead relatives.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I just knew it, and felt it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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