Arrived at the emergency room with such an intense headache. As I was placed into a bed, I was awake but everything became black. I heard someone yell for the Atropine. The next thing I know, I'm hovering at ceiling height, looking down on myself lying on the hospital bed. I could see I was wearing a blue and white hospital gown, and one of my legs was folded under the other. I felt myself drenched in a cold sweat. I appeared to be asleep or unconscious. I didn't see anything else in the room, but a calmness was with me. I don't know how much later I awakened, admitted into a hospital room. You must understand that before this experience I had a history of depression and anxiety, and had episodes of being homebound because I was so scared of everything in general. All that stopped with this episode. To say that this experience changed my life is not an exaggeration. I am very grateful. I feel very fortunate to be one of few that know that after your body stops, something (consciousness) continues.
Date NDE Occurred: Feb 1986
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic reaction 'was on mao inhibiter, ingested sinus pill/brandy, suffered hypertensive crisis, was given Demerol to reduce blood pressure in hosp er, this treatment contraindicated, may cause death.' Life threatening event, but not clinical death
I was on mao inhibiter, took sinus medication and brandy, and suffered hypertensive crisis. Was given Demerol in emergency room to reduce blood pressure, this treatment contraindicated - states may cause death.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As I was at ceiling height looking down upon myself.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As I was at ceiling height looking down upon myself.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. After hearing Atropine asked for, I heard nothing else. The rest of my experience was without sound.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Heightened awareness, euphoria, secureness such as a child hugged in a parent's embrace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes Was at ceiling height of the room, and could sense I would go no further.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I now know there is an afterlife. And I feel closer to God.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I now know there is an afterlife. And I feel closer to God.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Time eternal the question has been, what happens to our awareness when we die? I know without a doubt, and I am one of very few, that our awareness continues after the body ceases. From God's mouth to my ear, so to speak.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am more at peace, less confrontational, less afraid. More interaction with others.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? When I awakened unafraid I was grateful. I feel I had been given the okay to finally live my life. I could hardly believe it myself. I felt 'like a kid in a candy store.'
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes As soon as I awakened in my hospital bed, and found family around me, related events. Most people don't believe me, or think it was a dream. But even today I can relate the experience in detail, and the calmness is still with me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Since I was responsible for bringing the episode upon myself, I suppose I should have felt guilty, or at least take responsibility for it. But until this moment, I never thought of the experience in those terms. It was such an overwhelmingly positive experience, and if I had to do it over again, I would do it in an instant, with reservations, because it could kill me.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real See above.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No