Experience Description

I was told that I was unconscious for approximately thirty seconds, but I felt that I had 'been gone' for what seemed like two hours. Also, felt the presence of a male figure and knew that we had been 'conversing', and this of course was difficult to explain, as I do not remember anything about the encounter. Would have been so much easier to say something like, 'I was told it's not my time, etc.,' but I could not say that. I get mixed reactions when I report being angry to have had to leave and just wanted to close my eyes and return to that place.

After being admitted to the hospital for hypobolemic shock, and before receiving two units of blood, I had just been in my room a short time. I thought I was strong enough to walk to the bathroom, but, I lost consciousness again, only that time, I did not go anywhere.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 08/03/2004

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death I was three days post total abdominal hysterectomy and at home alone. I began to have internal bleeding that went untreated for approximately forty-five minutes before I lost consciousness.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Difficult to say, because I am not aware of any verbal conversation. I vaguely begin to feel that there was an understanding, but I had the overwhelming sense that I had been conversing with a male dominance, and that my role was more passive.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The entire time. I was just so overcome and aware of the feeling of peace, or whatever it was.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I did not know that I had lost consciousness. The last thing I remember was that I was getting light-headed again, and then I was awake in another room in my house. I had to ask what happened to me, and when I was told that I passed out, I said that I had been dreaming. I was told that I was only out about thirty seconds, and I felt this to be so wrong. I told them that I had 'been gone' (meaning that I was definitely somewhere) for at least two hours.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I was instantly in the presence of what I feel was a male dominance. When I was told that I had passed out, it was very important for me to let people know that I had been 'dreaming' and 'conversing'. I was very active during the time I was unconscious.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain Not that I was aware of.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Instantaneous peace, sublime, the most intense feeling of satisfaction and peace; I was calm and not afraid in the least.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I realize how fragile life can be.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes After regaining consciousness, I found it difficult to convey the enormous degree of peace and serenity that I was enjoying.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I think it is significant that I did not want to be awakened, and somehow wonder if I did have a conversation where I was told that I need to return. Otherwise, I cannot explain why I was upset when I realized I was no longer in that place and unable to find my way back.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it immediately with my family, but when I told my doctor she did not even acknowledge it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes At age fourteen, I read Raymond Moody's, 'Life After Life' and have read countless books since then. I was not aware of the time distortion so wondered if I really experienced a NDE. I thought everyone went through a tunnel, saw a bright light, met by family, etc.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I continue to feel blessed but would really like to know what was conveyed to me.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No