I was admitted into a hospital emergency room and informed that I was having a heart attack. I stayed in the emergency room for what seemed like days. All told, it was a total of eighteen hours in which doctors were fighting to keep me alive. I learned five years after this heart attack that I had died three times during that time period and was pronounced dead once. I was told by one doctor, directly following the ordeal that my heart nearly exploded.
The experience is very difficult to describe in that I did not know at the time what I had experienced. I knew that I was dying. I felt that immediately, I knew what was happening, and there was one point where I was removed from the pain and I later realized that I was being held by someone and consoled. After the heart attack and for months later I kept getting bits and pieces of that night as in flashbacks and visions. There were times during the last eight years that I became psychic and able to foretell when bad things would happen or when someone was going to be involved in a life taking event. I had feelings of great knowledge at times and of being able to transport myself, seemingly by telepathic means, across divides of space and time. There are many more things that the space in this website does not have room for.
Date NDE Occurred: February 13, 1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal For months after the experience it seemed that my brain did not want to slow down. It seemed to be working at super warp speed.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? This is difficult to say. I would guess that it was sometime during the eighth or ninth hour of struggle.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I had a sense of altered space and time. In fact, to this day I have trouble coping with time and time does not seem to matter to me which is very strange because before my heart attack I was not like that.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Emotions were high and I went through emotions that I didn't even remember having. I felt it was an emotional roller coaster.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I've had many psychic experiences since my heart attack and feel that on several occasions that I knew that someone was going to have a tragic accident and it later proved true. There is one time, with my sister-in-law that she claims that I saved her life by calling her and telling her to be careful and drive carefully.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, I exited from the emergency room an extreme believer in God. It felt as though Jesus himself was in the emergency room consoling me and holding me. The only thing was that I was in spirit form. It seemed that there were two emergency crews on duty, the physical world and the spiritual world. I was removed from the physical and comforted until the time that all danger had passed and I was kept from the pain until the pain had passed.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Several years.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew that I had been held by Jesus immediately after waking up. I knew of my experience but did not know what to call it and did not want to talk about it. It's been eight years and I am only now opening up to my wife and telling her of what happened in that emergency room.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I view my experience as real and know that it is real because I know what happened, I went through it. I did not reveal my experience to anyone because I did not want to be labeled as a psycho and I did not need anyone's opinion on the matter, the mere fact that I know and believe is enough for me.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I don't know if there is anything to add. I am trying to write a book on the experience and looking for others who may want to include their information or accounting of their experience in this book.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I don't know of anything that could improve the questionnaire except perhaps include an area for an essay on the experience. Sometimes these experiences are too much to write about in one sitting.