Fifteen minutes after taking a new diabetic injection, I was driving to work at the Veterans Affairs Hospital in Fayetteville, North Carolina, forty miles away. While en-route, I began to have a medication allergic reaction in the car. I noticed my face, tongue, hands, and feet began to swell very large, like nothing I had ever experienced before. I was becoming very scared. I knew this was much worse than I thought it was because of the reaction I was having.
I diverted my drive to work to the nearest hospital emergency room. I was not breathing very well. I knew I would not make it to the Veteran's Affairs hospital thirty-five miles away, and I was steadily becoming sicker with each minute that past. I don't know how I was able to make it the last three or four blocks to the hospital emergency room parking lot, but I did and parked my car slowly.
I got out and started trying to walk towards what I though was the entrance, everything around me looked gray; my eyes were swelling too. Halfway from my car to the entrance, I realized I was not going to make it and I said, 'God please don't let me die like this today,' and that was the last thing I remember. I was found in the parking lot unresponsive with no blood pressure a faint pulse and not breathing. What I vividly do remember was not feeling my body at all; there was no sense of pain, discomfort or sickness that I had been feeling at the time that I seemed to have left this world.
I remember that I had a sense of knowing and awareness that I was in a light blue mist or cloud. And while I was briefly there I had the most wonderful and peaceful feeling of wellbeing and comfort like nothing I had every known before. I was mentally aware, but I did not feel my body at all. I seemed not to even have to breathe. I thought I was in a place between the body and spiritual word of the afterlife, but I did not have any concerns or fear as if I had while I was experiencing my medical event. It really seemed like a place of sanctuary, beyond the physical boundaries of the flesh. It was like a place where a person's spirit goes when it first leaves the body.
The next thing I remember was a faint voice of a young lady, it seemed distant and then came closer to me. As I heard her, I wanted to respond but could not find a way, so I took a few breaths knowing she might see this if she was looking at me. Suddenly she sounded much closer and I heard her say, 'He has a faint pulse, and he is breathing. I realized I had left the bluish mist, however I could hear people now, but I could not move my arms and legs they could not be felt. I wanted to go back to the mist of peacefulness and tranquility, but I could not fully return to it.
Next, I felt myself floating in the air and moving. I was lifted up, but could not feel any hands, only the sensation of floating. I was taken to the emergency room trauma room, the doctor rubbed my chest, and I could mumble but could not speak. I could hear people taking in the room. Then I pressed myself to speak as best I could to the doctor to tell him of the medications I had taken earlier that morning. He told the nurse to given me an IV, and a few other medications to reverse the severe anaphylactic shock which I was suffering.
Date NDE Occurred: 'August 6, 2007'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic reaction Life threatening event, but not clinical death Severe anaphylactic shock.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Strange as it may seem, I was at my highest level of consciousness while in the bluish mist, and can never forget what I felt and thought while I was there. Perfect peace.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I only saw with my spiritual eyes - Mind's eye.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? No sounds in the mist, only live people seemed further away at a short distance.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Don't remember. Only that I arrived in the mist.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain I think I was engulfed in the bluish lighted mist.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Greatest peacefulness I have ever felt.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Native American Indian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes The heart is the essence of the person. When you go into the mist, you should have a good heart and spirit. When I deal with people who are afraid of what death is I can tell them what to expect and look for.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am more peaceful at work dealing with supervised staff. My people skills have improved, and are like knowing what people are thinking before they ask, or act. And understanding people more and better, and able to give better advice, and direction. Sometimes I can just walk into a patient's room, and I can feel the hurt and pain of the patient or family members. My supervisor wrote a letter to be placed in my personal file that states I am a gifted supervisor and patient care therapist.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain My gifts are mercy and healing as I have always been told. Now I have had the privilege to walk on a path that we must travel one day, and return to help others who have to walk it.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Not particularly.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The next day after I returned to work. With doctors, staff, chaplains. News flash! Wonderful news from the other side.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Very real as I slowly responded to the IV medications the emergency room doctor was giving me. And I began to tell of my experience to my friend who came to the hospital to pick me up later that afternoon.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Yes, it is very real. Death is only the passing from this life to the next life. I was not allowed to see the other side of the mist. But I was given a special moment in time of the most tranquil feeling and place like paradise, I was assured I was not to worry because I was to live this day, and when I returned to my conscious body I did not have the worry and fears I had before the event.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No