It was after my second surgery. They had been trying to determine where my internal bleeding was coming from. I stayed in recovery for a while and was later taken to my room in the critical care unit. About ten that night, three vascular surgeons came into the room. I was lying half-awake listening. They began to tell my wife, brother and parents, that they should stay close that there was a good chance that I would not make it through the night. The two nurses in the room began to cry. I had made friends with them. When hearing this I became very calm and peaceful. The only thing I remember thinking was that I wish they could fly me home so that I could die in Pensacola. I didn't want my family making that drive if I was dead. I just lay there waiting; really thinking this isn't so bad. I was looking forward to relief from the sheer pain of the bleeding that was filling up in me. I had nine blood transfusions.
The next thing I knew I was sitting on the end of the bed. I mean in an instant. It took me a second to reorient myself. The bleeding was in my hip area so my legs were not working and I remembered this. I could not figure how I was on the end of the bed. I could hear everyone talking and I began to look around. I could see myself and nobody was looking at me at the end of the bed. It took a minute, but it dawned on me. That was it. I couldn't help but thank how painless and easy death is. Evidently, God takes good care of us at that moment. As I sat there for a moment not really knowing what I was supposed to do next, everyone's voices began to fade. Then a large, being, I'm going to say guy for the sake of this conversation, walked into the room. Still a little disoriented, I assumed it was another doctor, except for the size. He had an orange garb that was brilliant. I guess God or Jesus or someone close to him to wear a halo, so that I would get the gist of what was happening. He had a perfect lit up white halo about three inches above his head. He stood in front of me sitting on the bed. I knew him better than I knew anyone in the room. It was as though I had known him forever. He looked at me and gave me a choice to stay or go. Without hesitation, I said let's go. I was ready. I had been battling illness for three years. I had been through chemo, and tons of drugs. Not to mention the worst pain ever with what I was currently experiencing. I looked back with no regret, knowing that my family could not lose in the end. I was tired and wanted terribly to be with this being. He solely cared for me and loved me so much. I made my choice to go. In almost an instant, my head was flooded with images of my two children and how hurt they would be. I know he did it, and I'm glad. I told him that I would have to stay. We talked briefly, I told him that I was so overwhelmed by the fact that with all the life I believe is in the universe and all the people on this planet, that they had not forgotten me in this little room in Birmingham. He responded that no one is forsaken. He also told me that the only thing important is how we treat one another.
With that, I was back in my body, feeling terrible. I kept saying to my wife, did you see the man with the halo. That night my blood count went up on its own. The bleeding stopped, and I was released from the hospital four days later. The hospital is publishing the case. They are great doctors, but I've got news for you, I know who fixed things.
Date NDE Occurred: 'March 14, 2010'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes IllnessSurgery-related 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
This is the second time something like this has happened to me. I wrote to you previously about my mishap in Argentina that led to kidney failure. This is somewhat of a byproduct of that. Due to immune suppressants that I was on, I contracted a severe syndrome. There have only been eight cases of this syndrome recorded in medical journals. I had severe internal bleeding that would not stop. I spent twenty-one days in the hospital. They flew me to another hospital because I was dying and it was so rare they didn't know how to treat the case. Of the eight cases, only two of us survived.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Yes.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Yes.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
The sense of not having to be anywhere at any time, as though there was nothing you had to do, created a sense of no time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Your sense of things are clearer. It's like you know your purpose.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I can say love, can't describe the rest.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I feel much closer to God and Jesus. It is a blessing to know they did not forget me in that room, nor would they forget any creature in this universe.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I feel much closer to God and Jesus. It is a blessing to know they did not forget me in that room, nor would they forget any creature in this universe.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes This is the best I have felt in three years. It is like I am high on life now. I didn't realize how sick I was the past three years and had gotten used to it. They now have me off the medications that caused this and I feel better. I have years of treatments ahead of me and a transplant in the future. However, I have no fear.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I have trouble finding words for the emotion and utter peace. The feelings of total acceptance are hard to explain, along with trying to explain a lack of sense of time.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I could not wait to tell my wife the next day. I have told a few people.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had one three years prior.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No