I ended up in the hospital with severe bleeding in my esophagus which needed to be operated on. I lost a lot of blood and my HV values were 6.2, where 17-21 is the norm. One night, I don't know which one, I saw myself floating in a very intense yet peaceful light and in that moment I had the feeling of complete peace, and absolute freedom in my soul. It was a sensation that is very difficult to describe - but it was very beautiful and ever since that moment I no longer fear death.
Date NDE Occurred: Ende 1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Blutung von ╓sophagusvarizen 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't have the answer for that.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A nearly endless tunnel with a very enjoyable light at the end.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A light that doesn't exist in this world - so beautiful.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm ich war so leicht unbeschwingt locker ohne Schuld glücklich halt
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? The best kind of happiness possible.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes An experience that is much better than an orgasm is very difficult to convey!
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Shortly after I was discharged from the hospital I told my wife and a few friends, none of them wanted to believe it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No