I had been shot in the arm and side. It took over six hours to get medical help. I remember lying on the operating table while two doctors were working on me (one was Howard). My arm was held up in the air while they were working on my arm. One of them said, 'There's some buckshot.' The other said, 'I'll get it.'
It was then that I realized I was out of my body about ten feet above the table looking down. That freaked me out a little and then my whole life flashed before me. It was like the scales of Justice. I could see the bad things on one side and the good on the other. I could no longer see me on the table, but I was on the bottom of a very beautiful colorful (like fire opal) blue, red, yellow translucent wall. As I floated to the top and looked over, there were five people standing on the bottom of the other side, dressed in white gowns. They were very thin and young, I don't know why but I believed they were relatives and one was my grandmother from my father's side. She died years before I was born. They called me by name and tried to call me over; trying to reassure me, it was all right. I felt it was very peaceful there but I was afraid and went back down. I don't remember anything else until I was in a coma (two weeks). When I woke up, I asked the doctor about the incident and he remembered and said we thought we lost you for a while. I truly know there is a God it's beyond belief.
Date NDE Occurred: May 23 1961
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Gunshot Wound (Shotgun) 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I was looking down at my relatives.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was looking down at my relatives.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was crystal clear but they were only ten feet away.
I just recalled that while mentally talking to the beings on the other side of the wall the translucent wall was changing colors.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I understood everything they said, but they weren't moving their mouths. I just understood them.
When the doctors talked, it was as if I was right next to them not ten feet away.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I went up the translucent wall and my relatives were on the other side. It was shaped like a triangle from one side to the next.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The five people were young looking in white gowns. I felt that one was my grandmother and I believe the others were relatives. They beckoned me to come over that everything was going to be all right. They conveyed a very peaceful feeling.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Amazement and a little realization that if I lived I needed to change my ways (fear).
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control For a brief moment my life passed before me. All the good things were on one side and all the bad things that I wasn't sorry for, on the other. I was worried because the bad outweighed the good. The good things were deeds where I helped others. Things I had totally forgotten about were there. A note: When you harm someone, we normally say 'I'm Sorry', but if you're not really sorry, it will come back later. Before that, I believed in God because that was how I was raised. After that, I KNOW there is a God and all things you do to other people are judged, and true sorrow is forgiveness.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Roman Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes My faith is stronger. It's hard to explain that I know there is a God. This is not a belief, it is a fact.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Roman Catholic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes My faith is stronger. It's hard to explain that I know there is a God. This is not a belief, it is a fact.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt that if I went over the wall I was in trouble.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Between the scales of Justice, talking to my relatives, and my experience in a coma, showed me what was important in life and how much of our brain is unused.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I still share and I don't feel that anyone believes. But I tell them the truth with hope that they might change their ways.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real While in my coma I had 24/7 each microsecond to think about my experience. When I had the chance to explain all of this to my mother, she dismissed it as a dream. We never talked about it again until the day she died. She said she talked to her mother who had died a year before.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real There is a God, Purgatory and Hell. Live your life as if today is your last day on earth. Life on earth is for a short time life after death is for eternity. The body is a home for your soul.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? If I'm wrong, then I 'wasted a lifetime' If I'm, right then you may have wasted eternity.