I had two experiences that were both were very brief.
In the first incident, I had broken away from a dysfunctional, dangerous family, so I was all alone in life. I enlisted in the military for protection. I am not sure if I was sleeping and dreaming, but all of a sudden I was standing in the night sky. I was surrounded by many stars. I was outside and it was neither, warm nor cold. I only saw stars and the night sky; nothing else. There was no earth, no nature, and no people. One star became enlarged and brightened. A male voice spoke to me and said, 'You will give birth to a son soon. You will raise him alone. You will name him Timothy James. Do not be afraid, you are not alone. He is your angel and you will live a long healthy life with him. Raise him in love. Have no fear. You will not become the mother that raised you.' Then I made a vow. I felt a sense of peace and comfort. My worries and fear washed away. This happened when I was stationed in Texas. Shortly thereafter, I discovered I was pregnant.
The second experience happened during childbirth. I was stationed in Washington. All of a sudden, I stopped hearing the doctors and nurses. I felt my body rising up to a translucent, bright light that had no color. A male voice spoke as my body floated. He said, 'It's not your time yet. You have a son to raise. Have no fear, you are not alone.' Suddenly, I woke up and the nurse was explaining that I passed out and they had to give me oxygen. A couple of weeks thereafter, I discovered that I had a pregnancy-related cardiomyopathy. The doctors thought I needed a heart transplant. They gave me medication to take for 6 weeks. I followed the doctor's orders. 6 weeks later during a follow-up visit, the doctor turned white. He said, 'Nothing is wrong with your heart. You are healthy. Your heart miraculously recovered.'
Date NDE Occurred: October 1995 and June 17, 1996
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Childbirth. Experience associated with other. In the first incident, I think I was sleeping, not sure; in the second incident, I was giving birth.
The first incident, no. The second incident, during childbirth, the doctors said that I passed out because I was experiencing heart problems.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I had no particular appearance as I just felt so much love and comfort. I did not pay attention to the physical appearances because the experience was more energetic.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. A male voice spoke to me.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm In the first incident, I was standing in the night sky, the Universe. In the second incident, I was floating under the light, Heaven. But I was stopped from entering when I was told that it was not my time.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, peace, and bliss
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe After both incidences, I knew for sure that my life purpose was closely connected to how I raised my son.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I received knowledge of my son.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes In the second incident, I floated under the light, but a resistance stopped me from entering. In the first incident, the sky seemed so close, yet so far away.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Catholic beliefs and principles
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I no longer follow any type of religion. Instead, I leave myself open to receive Divine love and knowledge from the Universe. I believe that God and love is all around us, and the Divine communicates with us through nature, animals, and other humans.
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Personal relationships Over the years, I gained insight to how relationships can block us from spiritual growth. So now, I understand why I never married in life. My perspective on friendship and family is very different from most people. Even my relationship with my son, has never fell within the conventions of society.
After the NDE:
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? Yes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes After both incidences, my sixth sense sharpened. I can feel other people's pain and emotions. I can perceive what blocks them from becoming aware. I can perceive how they live, why they make the choices they make. I can also perceive the ignorance that blocks them from raising their consciousness. I also have the ability to communicate with my son's spirit.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The worst was that I became very different from other people, as my lifestyle does not fall within the convention. I feel like I live on the opposite side of the spectrum. Hence, I am alone most of the time.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They just brushed it off. I think they were just confused and did not know how to respond.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No