I was admitted on August 10, 2001 for surgery. (Hysterectomy.) The next day, I experienced severe abdominal pains. The gynecologist called the help in of a surgeon on Sunday 12 August. I was sent for various scans/x-rays. By 13th of August I was extremely weak, could hardly even breath. My stomach was so swollen, I felt like it could burst. (I wished for it to happen, as I could not stand the pain any longer). The Tuesday around lunch time, my mom was visiting me in the hospital room. I saw my uncle's face, as if in a dream, but yet awake. I told her he had an orange glow around his face, and looked so good.
The next moment, I saw myself drifting out the hospital, over valleys, (could clearly see the Aloes beneath) then over the beach, the sea and the next moment I was on top of the clouds. The sky was beautiful, clear. The clouds formed a white floor, (same as what you sometimes, on a clear day experience, when you are flying twenty to thirty thousand feet high). Then I saw a sunray, which looked similar to a spotlight moving from far over the clouds in a circular motion closer to me. I tried to touch it as it got closer to me, but it pulled away. In the right-hand corner of my scope of view, I was aware of two shadows. (Similar to when you are in a movie house, and you see the black silhouettes of the heads of the people sitting in front.) I was not scared of them, but they did make me feel uncomfortable. I asked God to please protect me from them. I saw the sunray, and wanted to dive into it. I heard something similar to a choir of female voices, telling me/singing to me, that it is not my time yet. I did not want to listen to them.
The sunray came past me again, and I dove underneath it...
There are absolutely no words in ANY language that can describe the utter sense of peace/joy/contentment/happiness that I had experienced. I remember thinking, how could I not have realized how heavy my body was on earth? I remember comparing my body's weight to a five ton elephant! - How light I felt! How fast I could move! I could think of myself/see myself as a ball of energy and moving so fast!
The feeling of peace could be at best described as follows: Try and think of THE MOST relaxed and calm state in which you have EVER been! I compare it to being totally alone, with my ears submerged under the water in a bath. There is no sound - you're completely relaxed - well this comparison to that of the peaceful experience I encountered could be compared to still sticking your head in a bee hive!
I asked God, that if it was truly not my time yet, to please tell me what my purpose on earth was - then I woke up in my hospital bed - for something that felt like hours, my mom told me I was just 'gone' for about two minutes! I woke up smiling telling her, I know what my purpose on earth was! To find joy and spread joy! Sounds so simple. A short while later they pushed me back to theater (my intestine was perforated, during the initial hysterectomy and the leak caused my body to be slowly poisoned). Psalm Twenty-three repeated in my mind over and over.
Approximately two months later:
Although I knew my purpose on earth now, I could not imagine that it was so simple. In any case, I was a kind of happy/joyful person, so what? Then my husband, who have NEVER in his life, attended any Christian courses etc. decided one Monday night, to join a friend of ours, (whom we had not seen in close to over a year) on a disciples course. He attended this on the Thursday and came home telling me about the part in the New Testament, where the rich man, who had everything, asked Jesus what he could do to inherit eternal life. Jesus told him give up everything he had, and the man could not do that. Somewhere in between all of this, my husband uttered the following words. And God said, find Joy in me, and spread it! I was stunned! This was God speaking to me so directly! I knew the joy I thought I had to spread, was not the same I had in mind! I was shocked, scared as I knew this meant, I had to basically stop my life I was currently leading, move back in to my 'Father's house' and have HIM in the center of my life. Today, four years later, I am FAR from where I would like to be/should be, still living a 'normal' life, still getting drawn into the everyday life issues, but every now and again, I realize, that I have to pull out, not to become to part of the daily life issues, and remember - God is out there!
Date NDE Occurred: 14 August 2001
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I could rationalize so much faster, take in so much more. Think of so many things, all at the same time.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The sunray came passed me again, and I dove underneath it. The experience of the directly here after.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Degree of Solidness. I felt (if I can compare the feeling to something) like a ball of energy that moved fast.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Not a tunnel, but the sunray!
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I did not see anyone, but heard their voices.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The sunray.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Passing over the valleys, clearly seeing the plant growth beneath me, the beach, the ocean and being ontop of the clouds
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? PEACE, Happiness, contentment - we do not have words to truly describe the emotions!
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal Christian
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes This happened afterwards, not during. I woke up in my hospital bed, repeating the same words over and over - my purpose on earth is to find joy and spread joy.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain I am trying to teach my family to live closer to God. I am a lot more aware that he truly exists, and that he assists me in everyday matters.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole experience.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain Just heard about it on TV etc. Was not sure if I could believe it or not. Same as the question of 'Are there Aliens'??? Who knows???? You don't believe until you see.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Four years later, it is still has real to me as ever. I remember this experience, much better than I remember things that have happened during that year!
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Nothing has changed. It is as if something have happened, you experienced it, and carry on with your life. Can't change the past, what happened, happened.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No