Experience Description

I was very young and my brothers and sisters (of which I have seven), all went up into the hayloft to play. They were not supposed to but did anyway. I wanted to go with them but they said I was too little and wouldn't let me go.

They left the door open so they could check on me I guess. When they were playing, I climbed up the ladder, and then climbed in.

I was standing in front of the door, and of course, it’s in the floor of a hayloft. I started toward them and they started to come and get me. They were fussing at me. So I started to back up, and by the time, they screamed at me to stop, I fell out backwards. I fell on my head and neck, and I've always had trouble with my neck since then. I was not in my body when they got down to me, because I was above them looking down. They thought I was unconscious or dead, but I wasn't. I was just watching them. But, I was ok and didn't get why all the excitement. I was there and safe, and I didn't like them being upset. But it is strange how I felt I still remember that after all these years and with me being so little. You wouldn't think I would. I knew there was someone with me. I felt them holding me, and they loved me even more then my family. The kids ran and got mom and dad. And I got back in my body by that time. I don't really remember anymore. My head hurt then.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1959 maybe

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident 'I was backing up and my brother had left the door open. He was trying to catch me, and I went out backward.' 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening' 'I fell out of a hayloft, in a barn. Onto the cement floor.'I don't really know. They took me to the hospital and were told to keep me awake. I don't think they did anything else.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I didn't feel my body at all. I was in no pain until I was back in it. I felt like an angel. And I have always felt like I was an angel since then, or had a fascination with them.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was awake and alert, and wondering why they were so upset with me, and why was I on the ceiling. But at no time did I feel in danger.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It seemed like just a second or two, but a lot seemed to happen in that time. He told me a lot of things.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I don't remember any sounds. No harps or nothing. Sorry.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No Not this time. I didn't get to go anywhere because he told me I had to go back. I didn't want to though. It's so amazing how much I remember now that I'm finally talking about it. I guess I just figure why remember it if I couldn't tell anybody. They wouldn't believe me.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I didn't see them, I felt them. It was just a peaceful, loving feeling. And safe. They were holding me and talking to me, but I didn't look back at them. I just knew who they were. It was Jesus. And he told me he would be telling me things. And he has always shown me things. It’s like déjà vu. But when he shows me things it’s to show me I'm where he wants me to be in my life.

Did you see an unearthly light? No I didn't see any light until later. Another time.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm My feelings were very aware of everything. I was almost giddy I was so happy. And I think my whole life I’ve searched for that feeling again.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I actually felt good, peaceful, and mellow sort of. Like I knew Jesus was there, or somebody who loved me very much. I felt happy, happier then when I was in my body. My body made me feel sluggish, like I couldn't move. But I could move and feel freedom.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Special knowledge. That's what he gave me. To let everybody I met know I love them like they are the most important person in my life. And to always be good and help others and that if I did that he would show me things. And that as long as I wanted him there he would never leave me. And he has always been there. I still feel him even today.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I knew when people were coming before they got there. And I sense how people were feeling. I sensed when things were going to happen sometimes. You know why I know it’s true, because I still know the feeling of being there. And it’s so vivid.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No I didn't want to go. Jesus put me back; he told me I had things to do.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist 'I am not your typical, Christian, I really do believe the bible n think it's very simple. Live in peace and love. Put God first, others second, ourselves last. Love them more than ourselves.'

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Not so much with this one, except always knowing Jesus was with me. But I have with the many experiences I have been through. And he has given me knowledge of the Bible. It just seems so simple I don't get why others have such problems with it.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I never told anyone. I knew they wouldn't believe me.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I just have little things happen all the time. Like he will give me a strong feeling to talk to people sometimes, and if I don't do it sometimes things happen to them and I'm left feeling like maybe I could have prevented it.

Jesus told me to talk to my husband’s aunt one day and I was busy. She even asked me to come in and talk to her that day. But, I was so tired and wanted to go home. I told her I would come over first thing in the morning. The next morning she was dead.

Another time I was at work and he told me to talk to a man at work I didn't even know. We both were on a break outside by ourselves but we didn't know each other. But Jesus kept telling me to talk to him that he sent him to me. I was too embarrassed and didn't. The next day he shot himself in the head. There are more.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part was the experience itself, the feeling the love. The worst part is I can’t hit my head every day to get that back.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes If you include laughter. Or disbelief. I tried when I was little and haven't told anybody since then.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Several experiences. One at sixteen, one at twenty one, thirty five, forty six, and forty eight.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? For anybody out there who is depressed, or for whatever you need he is with you too. All you have to do is call out to him and tell him you want him to take over your life. We are spiritual beings. And that feeling I had just very short time when I was a child. And it has inspired my whole life, and my search to get back to it. And I've had it a few other times. Just imagine what he can do for you.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? This is a very good site. Thank you for letting me share it with someone, finally.