I was told (after the fact) that I was given a cocktail of heavy duty drugs. I didn't remember having been given the drugs. I must have had a violent reaction to them immediately. My baby had not been delivered yet. I remember being up high in a corner of the hospital room, watching all of those people serving me being in a panic state. I saw myself lying on the bed, but, although I knew it was I, I wasn't the least bit concerned about it. It was in no way a part of me anymore. I kept saying, 'Please don't worry about me. I'm fine.' I realized that they couldn't hear me. I felt so bad that they were in a turmoil when I was feeling fine. I felt free of all care, and yet I didn't feel dead although I didn't feel separated from where I would have preferred being.
Two days later, I awoke inside an oxygen tent. Just before I woke up, I was having a satellite kind of dream, with rockets, stars, everything ethereal flying around me. I felt 'wow' - not afraid but overwhelmed by all of the confusion. It wasn't a pleasant dream and not a place I wanted to be. I was told at that time that my baby had been delivered and that I had had a girl. I wasn't aware of anything connected to the delivery.
Later, when I was telling my experience to my registered nurse friend who was with me at the hospital, I told her if I were an artist, I could have drawn the exact scene I was witnessing from above - even to the people there, whom I had never seen before or since. I saw everyone flying around my hospital bed and heard everything that was being said. I remember glancing at my body on the bed. I think I realized it was a dead body, but it didn't seen relevant to me.
Date NDE Occurred: 'November 10, 1959'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
The people attending me (nurses, doctor) were very upset because I wasn't breathing. One nurse said, 'She's turning blue.'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At no time was I actually conscious. As far as my viewing the scene from above, I felt very normal and conscious, although I was not.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.
I didn't feel of this world.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No I never turned around from the scene down below in the room.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No I don't know how to answer question 25 below.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? It happened very quickly, at least from my point of view. I was in a space where nothing was bothering me, except for the people who were so upset about me.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No I've always believed in a life everlasting.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No I've always believed in a life everlasting.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I'm much more caring.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No But I didn't want to talk about it very much. I thought people would think I was crazy.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No I have always felt that I was psychic. Lots of experiences in this, but nothing connected with my near-death experience.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I feel very deeply that there is a world beyond this planet. No one can dissuade me in my belief. I care a lot more about my fellow man and woman. I pray daily.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes But I wanted to share this with you with the hope that it can help your research. I'm sorry I waited so long.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I know it was real. That's all I can tell you. The psychedelic dream was my coming down from the drug overdose. The hospital room scene was real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I have never had one doubt about the experience being real. It is as real today as it was over forty-five years ago.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? This has been a long questionnaire, and I'm weary now. I think I've told you all I know.