There was darkness but I was in a light and the light was warm, loving, and peaceful. It was God's light. I mean that is what he is. My soul was in his soul, light, or something like that. It was so wonderful I didn't want to leave but someone said I had to go back. I could hear my mum saying, "Don't you leave us! Lisa don't you leave us!" At times, I would come to and open my eyes. I would see my mum by my side, but then I would be back there in God's light. After I finely came back, I was so angry because I wanted to stay because it was so peaceful.
Date NDE Occurred: 1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Suicide attempt Life threatening
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I know I wasn't in body form. I could tell it was my soul somehow.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Very good. I was in and out of consciousness. I was very alert because a nurse came in and kept asking me if I knew where I was, the date, and the day. I always knew.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no sense of time. I felt like I was there for a long time but it was only a short time.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Just my mum saying, ''Don't leave us.'' Later, I found out she wasn't saying it, she was thinking it.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain Not sure because the person who said I had to go back was different. I don't know why but I know I was told by someone else.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was God and I was in the light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, peace, at peace, warm, happy, calm, etc…..
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Not at the time but afterwards. God made me see that if I want to be at peace that I needed to change things in my life.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control God is compassionate. He didn't think I was bad for trying to kill myself . He understood my pain and helped me find peace in life, instead of in death.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No I sensed that it was the finest place, but I couldn't go there.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was led to believe that killing your self was a sin and bad. But God was understanding and could feel my pain. I think if I was to try it again, God would keep me there. I don't know why but he would. but he knows I won't because he showed me how to be at peace here on earth.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain It was like seeing without eyes; hearing without sound; and speaking without mouth or words. No real words to describe.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I could see or sense things. He was letting me know of what I had to do to be at peace here on earth.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best was being in his light. The worst was being sent back.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Some people believe me. Some say they believe but I don't think they really do. I think they find it hard to come to terms with what I experienced because they have no frame of reference to compare it to on earth.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? There are so many things I can't put into to words to describe the experience.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? not sure?
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