She felt like she was in a tunnel. At the end of a tunnel was a bright light. She kept moving toward that bright light. Once she got to the bright light, she felt a presence behind her and knew it was Jesus. In the light, she saw her father (my grandpa) and his brother (great uncle) sitting at a table. (In the early 1970s, they both had preceded her in death.) She looked at grandpa and said, 'Dad, I want to come with you.' Grandpa turned around and spoke to someone - whom mom knew was God although she could not see him - and when he turned back to her, he said, 'It's not time.'
That's when she awoke from the 'coma'.
Date NDE Occurred: Late 1970's
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Surgery-related. Allergic reaction Reaction to anesthesia from a surgery Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
We were visiting mom following a surgery she had. She swelled up and looked like she was nine months pregnant. The doctors kicked us out of her room as they began trying to revive her. (She had had surgery on Monday and this happened the following Sunday. She couldn't remember any of us visiting her during that week.)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The way she related it to me, she would have been most conscious and alert while waiting for grandpa's response to her wanting to come with him.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Not that she described to me.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Mom had experienced other visions including awakening abruptly from a dream and saying out loud that something had happened to me while I was on a train ride from Chicago (our dining car had derailed at the exact time she awoke) and had an out-of-body experience seeing doctors perform surgery on her.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. She did not say anything about hearing anything special.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes See main narrative.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Destinctive location is a table at which grandpa and uncle were sitting at.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? From what she told me, she felt true love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No Hers remained the same up until her death. She always seemed to believe and know about Jesus.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No Hers remained the same up until her death. She always seemed to believe and know about Jesus.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes The experience she related to me gave me the feeling that she knew how things were going to work once it was 'her time'. I, myself, have had only one dream of her at which I was crying beside her bed, knowing she was deceased. She sat up on the bed and told me, 'I'm okay, Linda, I'm okay.'
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Mom was apologetic and asked for my forgiveness for not being a better mother.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No Mom was able to relate her story very well. We, being so much alike, never got along very well. She told me her story and then apologized to me for not being a better mother.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Mom impressed upon me the fact that she knew Jesus was behind her and grandpa talked to God.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Mom shared this with me within a year of this occurring. I have also related this story to others who seemed genuinely interested.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real If mom didn't think her experience was definitely real, she would not have told me about it nor apologized for not being a better mother to me.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I have no reason not to believe what mom told me about her experience.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No She had no others that I'm aware of.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Although I'm relating what my mother saw, I have no doubt about any of her experience that she told me. I, at twenty-seven, was calmed by her appearance in my own dream, that what she told me was real.