Last Monday of April 1992, I got my first heart attack only thirty-nine years old. Two weeks earlier, I felt something in my chest, but I was naive thinking it could not have been the heart. I imagined it to be a rib that had been punched, I've broken them a number of times. I also thought it could be a muscle inflammation, well you know how it is when searching for an explanation. I felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest, with shortness of breath and a burning pain that was moving into my left arm. But a couple of pain killers used to help a little. This Monday I went to my work, thirty kilometers from Ulricehamn, like I use to do. I lit a cigarette and took a couple of deep drags, thinking I was going to die in the car. An indescribable pain. Arriving at work, my work-mates saw that things were not right. They nagged me about going to the hospital in Boras, but I refused, as I was the only chef. There was nobody else who could cook the food, and my guests were most important. But with all the nagging, I called the emergency ward in Boras. When I explained how I felt, they more or less demanded me to come there immediately. Yes, I found a person who could take over for me temporarily. I took a couple of pain killers in a little water, drank it, and sat down in the car.
A janitor wanted to drive me, but stubborn as I am, I thought that had I driven to work I could drive back; it was about sixty kilometers to the hospital. I told them I was driving home and if it came to the worst, my wife could drive me. But as I was driving, it wasn't that bad, I decided to drive all the way. About ten kilometers from Boras I began to suspect it could be the heart, this pain and severe shortness of breath cannot be put into words. At the hospital, I was going to put money into the parking meter. Behind me stood a girl, she worked at the hospital. She asked me how I was feeling. I looked at her and said, 'I feel like sh@#. I'm just going to pay for the car.' Calmly and nicely, she said she would arrange that, at the same moment I lost consciousness. I woke up in the emergency unit, have never seen so many nurses there for one single person. I was lying on a stretcher, and they ran up to the intensive care unit with me. They connected me to a number of machines, now I had five dropping bottles (IV's) hanging on a stand.
I was not allowed to do anything myself, because I could get another heart attack. The blood pressure was very high 220/135, and the vascular spasm attacks were getting closer and closer, even though they pumped me full with nitroglycerine. Now I was really bad, don't remember very much of it.
But Tuesday night my heart stopped, I was transported to Gothenburg very fast. There they were going to do an acute balloon rupture, but my heart stopped again. I was totally gone, but now something happened that I feel is fantastic. A totally different world opened up, I saw myself laying on the bed but I myself was on my way towards a light. I turned around and looked at myself, but then kept on walking or rather floating towards this wonderful light. This warmth and this joyful place was lovely. Here there were no stress, no high demands and no evil. It was so full of love that it cannot be described, everything was beauty. A place to be longed for, such wonderful verdure and warmth. Here there was only joy. Everyone was wonderful. No one was superior of one another, there I stood and all I wanted was to climb over. Then I heard somebody call my name, 'Lennie come back, Lennie, Lennie come back stay here. You are needed here come back and stay.' I heard those words repeatedly, turned around and looked at her. She was standing behind me at my right side. She was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen, with wonderful eyes that would make anyone melt. Beautifully made up, what lips. I wanted to hug her, yes even kiss her, even though I was happily married at the time. I looked at her, she begged so humbly, 'Please stay we need you, stay here come back.' Who could resist such a woman, so I turned around and woke up in my own body.
About an hour later when I was lying in my bed, I called to the staff. I asked for this nurse, everyone looked strange at me. There is no such person here, and never has been. I was laying there thinking about this for a long time and do so often even today. Was it my guardian angel or what. However, this came to change my life, mostly my values in life. I think it does that to everyone who has stood at the gate; today I appreciate the small things. I think life is fantastic, but death does not scare me. I know it is a new phase in life, at another level. Take care of your lives and Live Well in Harmony with yourself and your Spirit.
Your Devoted Lennie B.
Date NDE Occurred: Sista måndagen i April 1992
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Två hjärtinfarkter inpå varandra Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) . Heart attack.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm En grön blomsteräng med ett vitt palats som jag inte nådde fram till.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal ingen
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal Tror på något som finns i varje enskild människa, alla har en gud i sig
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No